04-11-2009 - Breastfeeding

My mood while writing this blog: Hmmmm maybe worried

I have been breastfeeding Cale since he was born obviously lol... I do quite enjoy how special it seems to be feeding him... I only fed my first for six weeks as it didnt agree with her and my second I didnt feed at all.. But I was very determined to try and feed Cale and it seems to have worked well for me this time.. Except I feel bad that Cale my poor little man has ezcema almost all over his body... I am currently trying to take diary out of my diet, hopeing it will cure his symtoms.. but that is depressing in its self.. I love cheese way to much... But my son is worth it and I have been strong.. lol its only day one... But having said that I find because I am breastfeeding I blame myself for everything with him.. If he has a cold.. its my fault... if he is crying its my fault... I just always feel like everything that happens with him is my fault.. Is that weird??? I mean I know that my milk is good.. I mean my baby is only 4 mths and 2 wks and he weighs a very healthy 8 kgs... well and truely over the average for his age.. Cale is also wearing toddler sized nappies (10-15kgs) and wearing size 0 clothing.. So he is fine nutritionally... just allergy wise he is having problems.. and it makes me feel so resposible... I really hope this diary thing helps him... it is getting me down.. :(