04-5-2009 - week 38 appt!!! i cant take this s%*# anymore

My mood while writing this blog: depressed

well last night I worked from 7p to 7am, around 5 am i ate me some cereal and the milk must of done something to me because I started to feel so sick after eating... i became very anxious I could not keep still I was a basket case at work, I would sit down then get up walk go back to my seat i was a straight mess, i started crying on the phone to my husband, that I cant take it anymore, I want her to come out now, I have told alot of you how there is a restuarant that claims if you eat there eggplant parmasean you will go into labor with 48 hours, the only reason i have not eaten there yet is because saturday is my husbands sisters graduation from college and he is going it is 4 hours away and i dont want to be in labor while he is gone!!! I swear that I think this restuarant will do the trick for me but as soon as the graduation is over I will be at the restuarant either sat night or sunday!!!!

well this morning I had an appt at 11:40am, remember i got off work at 7am i was so tired i did not want to have to wait until 11 am for an appt so i went straight to the docs office and acted as if i could be in labor and they let me be seen at that time!!!! big mistake, i saw the male doc... I hate them there are two where i go, they are nice but very short in conversation and are in and out in 2 mins!!! my 11 oclock appt was with my favorite midwife she is the BOMB i love her... so im being seen by the male boring doc.... he did not check me im 38 weeks and they said they will check me at 38 weeks, he did a speculum exam on me because i said i felt some leaking, he told me my water did not break, and pulled the speculum out thats it no checking me or nothing.... so i asked him if i am effaced at all he says 50 percent!!! but how could he know if he did not do a vag exam... can he tell from the speculum HMMM i dont know... then when i was walking out i asked if i was dilated he said "ummm no, i dont, no your not" what the hell kind of response is that!!! he did not know because he did not check me!! so i could be dilating and not even freakin know...

then what made it worse is while i was driving out, my lovely midwife was getting out of her car. I yelled to her and asked her when will she do my membrane sweep she said next week and i asked her about the eggplant to induce labor she said it works and to go eat it... i was so depressed i should have waited to see her, she would have spent so much more time with me she would have checked me and gave me all the good tips on inducing!!!!!