this might be a lil TMI...don't wanna hear it - don't read it!*

I was admitted to the hospital to induce me late in the evening on monday. since my cervix wasn't ready they had to insert a strip that had to stay in for 12 hours. So nothing big was to happen on monday. just wait....

strip comes out...which means cervix is ready to rock and roll. BUT i'm only dilated 1cm still. -sigh- so pitocin was started...few hours later no change! This is when i meet the doctor from HELL! He had no patient compassion and man handled me! all i can say about him is he's a fucker! Anyway...Once they started the pitocin i get the epidural. Now i have to say its a great thing b/c you can't feel any contractions (at that moment btw) but the process of getting it wasn't fun. When the doctor came in to give me the epidural i had started with the contractions (which hurt like hell) so while the doctor started i'm suppose to sit still so he doesn't mess up, well right then when he inserts the needle i get a contraction, and vivian starts kicking. I must have moved b/c i started to get this burning feeling in my left hip...but b/c i'm in so much pain from the contraction, the needle in my back and baby kicking me i'm telling him it hurts in my RIGHT hip, so he adjusts it so now i really feel pain in my right hip b/c i'm a retard and don't know my left from my right. We finally got it right. Although i didn't like the epidural that much, i guess i didn't like the feeling of not having any control of my bladder, legs, or being stuck in bed. But it did help with the pain of the contractions.

about 3am i get a visit from a student doctor (useless is what i call him) and i'm starting to have alot more pain from the contractons...even though i've got the epidural running these contractions aren't the kind that will be numbed by the epidural. These contractions are the ones that let me know when to push...but its not time to push so i can't. Anyway I tell that useless "doctor in training" i'm in pain he asks a few questions and then leaves....BUT NO ONE COMES BACK...stupid ass never told my nurse! So few hours later in the morning sometime my epidural starts to wear off on my left side (can you say OUCH) so the epidural doctor comes back and gives me something that numbs me again, and takes away the pain - for about 5 mins! I'm back to the worst pain in my life...The only way to describe it is like this...Think about having a broom stick stuck in your butt, when the contraction comes think about someone ramming that broom stick further into your butt! By this time my contractions are about 1min apart and lasting about 57seconds...do the math theres no rest in between each contraction. but get this...i'm only 7 cm dilated! I seriously had my brain mentally check out....i remember the pain, grabbing onto the bed for dear life, and mike helping me breathe...other than that i don't remember much more. MY doctor finally comes in to check on me and gives me this news.....it feels like her head is so far down but its not its just swollen, plus my cervix is really swollen. he kinda gives me an option but i can tell he is wanting me to lean towards a c-section. He said i can wait...but it might take a LONG time to get to 10cm or we can go now to the OR. by this time...i've had ENOUGH...take me to the OR!!!

I'm up and about. I take a shower and ready to do whatever. My doctor was surprised to see me up and about and said b/c i'm feeling well enough to do that i could go home on Friday not Saturday! woo hoo i'd rather recover at home than there with all the nazi nurses!

GOING HOME! Yes its painful, but i'm home with Vivian!!!

turday and Sunday, still painful to move around but its getting better by the day. You really don't know how much you use your abs until you have them sliced open!!!!

So anyway...

Doctors appt today...going to get the staples out! Well i wake up short of breathe, and have a pain in my chest. as i get to move around and get ready for the day i really start to have a hard time breathing and now i have a tightness in my chest!

ell we get to the doctors office and he removes my staples and when i tell him about my issue with breathing, thinking hes going to tell me its just a reaction to the pain meds, he tells me to go straight to the ER b/c it could be a blood clot. GREAT!!!

oo swollen. So swollen that i can't walk - seriously i need a wheel chair to walk anywhere further than the couch to the kitchen.) Results were no clot (thank GOD) BUT my lungs were starting to collapse. GREAT - so now i have to do breathing exercises...