02-6-2009 - TOTALLY FED UP

My mood while writing this blog: meehhh

Planning a wedding is supposed to be a happy thing eh? I'm so bummed just now. Me and DF have been talking alot recently about who to invite to wedding etc and we had decided that we werent going to invite my uncle because he has still not apologised for what he did (previous blog) which i think is totally understandble. Anyway....after all that rubbish with Pearces bday, i decided to tell my mum what we had decided and how i felt about it all and she totally flipped. Saying things like how i was bang out of order because i hadnt given my uncle a chance to apologise (its been 2 months) and that it was awful how im inviting my dad to the wedding after all hes done. Shes the one that said to me for the years i didnt speak to my dad to give him a second chance which i have done and hes been nothing but supportive and a brilliant grandad. I just burst into tears...ive had enough with all of this. Im so stressed just now but im trying to calm down because i know its not good for the baby. Ive had a splitting headache all day and cant seem to shift it so might go and have a wee lie down. I just feel like mum just loves to interfere and cant keep her mouth shut!! It pisses me off because there has been so many things over the years that shes done and i could have said something and guess what?? i respected her decisions and kept my mouth shut!! Why cant she put what i want for my own wedding first?? She kept saying everyone is entitled to their feelings and opinions....i agree but everything i feel and have an opinion on is wrong?? how does that one work?? grrrr i'm getting annoyed just thinking about it so im going to go and chill out lol!!