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| 01-9-2009 - Paranoid and scared |  My mood while writing this blog:upset and worried |
If any of you ladies have read my previous blogs, you will know that when i was pregnant with my son, DF emailed, txtd and phoned numerous women through a dating site. All of a sexual nature. Anyway.....we went to couple conselling and seemed to be moving forward.
I dont know whats going on with me just now but i am so paranoid that he is doing it again. He hasnt even gave me any reason to think that!! I have checked his email and phone and theres been nothing! I can barely sleep at night at the moment because my mind is so busy with thoughts about it all. Im scared if i keep going on like this, i will lose him.
What he did totally devastated me and i know im still not over it but its just gotten too much to deal with in last few weeks. I dont know if its because im only 11wks away from having the baby and just getting hormonal. Im panicking that he will do it again and i just couldnt cope with it. We are planning our wedding for July and im so excited about that. I just need to sort this out. I really dont know what do to....i feel like im a possessive bitch just now!! I dont want to be like that. I just want to get past this xx
3 Comments on Paranoid and scared
angela32 - Tuesday, 1 Sep
From an experience I dealt with yrs ago....I know the more I accused him,said something about the past(when we had already moved past it)or just really played the jealousy card it pushed him away over and over again!It never got better cuz I didn't leave the past in the past!You will just have to move past it and keep a tight lip about your insecurities.....insecurities seem to drive men away!It really sucks you have to feel this way but if you were willing to forgive and move forward you have to try and forget it and God forbid if something else happens it is out of your control and deal with it then!I hope you can start to relax and feel better more than likely you are seriously hormonal....I know I am...in fact I think everything everyone says is against me and I get my feelings hurt so easily!Take care for you and baby!
angela32 - Tuesday, 1 Sep
From an experience I dealt with yrs ago....I know the more I accused him,said something about the past(when we had already moved past it)or just really played the jealousy card it pushed him away over and over again!It never got better cuz I didn't leave the past in the past!You will just have to move past it and keep a tight lip about your insecurities.....insecurities seem to drive men away!It really sucks you have to feel this way but if you were willing to forgive and move forward you have to try and forget it and God forbid if something else happens it is out of your control and deal with it then!I hope you can start to relax and feel better more than likely you are seriously hormonal....I know I am...in fact I think everything everyone says is against me and I get my feelings hurt so easily!Take care for you and baby!
fiona101 - Tuesday, 1 Sep
hmm i had something kinda similar to this when i first got with martin he was txtin some girl n i found out he went out round town with his mates n 3 lads took 3 girls back for drinks ... nothing happened - i ONLY beileve this because i read a thing on face book he sent to one of his mates saying he couldnt do it to me and it make him realse how much he loved meand he left as soon as they got back to his mates- needless to say i went mad etc but we fixed it and do trust him and i know in my heart he wouldnt do it again now im having his son - he really wants a boy but still i have mometns where i think oh god will he really hurt me ! i dont know what to say to u, take a deep breath and just chill for a sec - i know easier said than done but just try to be calm and thinks will be fine x
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