10-11-2009 - Bad midwife appointment

My mood while writing this blog: sad and angry

Well yesterday i had my 38wk appointment with the midwife and it ended up with me in tears. Ive been looking forward to this appointment because it was when my sweeps started. Im really struggling to cope daily with my pelvic pain now so was hoping i could try and get things started. I can barely walk and ive got no help with Pearce while DF is working. Im in tears every night when i go to bed because the pain gets so bad.

Anyway me and DF were taken to a room and i had to go give a urine sample. While i was out, midwife had asked DF why i was getting swept from 38wks (bad experience first time, trying to avoid csection again, consultant not really wanting me to pass 40wks etc) Midwife then said to DF "well she had to come in the day both midwives have small hands eh?" He didnt know what to say! I didnt know she had asked him this when i came back in. Midwife then asked me exactly same question so me not knowing DF had already explained i went into another explanation which obviously was the same as DFs. She came across as if i shouldnt be getting a sweep.

So after my explanation she said "well i doubt i'll be able to do much because ive got small hands!" Totally shocked me! She then asked me if i was breastfeeding this time and i said no....she then continued to grill me on the benefits of breastfeeding!

I got organised for my examination and im not joking, she examined me for like 2secs and said nah cant reach anything. Didnt try or anything. When we left i just burst into tears because ive totally had enough. Cant handle the pain anymore and if i dont give birth by the 23rd ive got an appointment at the hospital to discuss delivery meaning a csection. I really dont want to go through another csection.

When we got home DF was livid. He actually couldnt speak about it until we got to bed. He was so angry. After work he wants me to phone hospital and get another appointment with a different midwife. Im just totally done