17-11-2009 - 10 days to go

My mood while writing this blog: ok i suppose

Today has been a really tough day for me. Yesterday i spent over 2hrs on buses to get to my appointment to arrange my csection and im suffering big time today because of it. We have just bought a car but it still needs mot'd and things which take time and money lol. Christopher had to help me get to the bathroom this morning it was that bad.

Feeling really down, i know ive only got 10 days max but im so broken. This pregnancy has been so physically demanding on my body and im so drained. Theres been lots of tears. Just fed up of not even being able to get changed without being in pain so looking after a 19mth old son is definately not easy! The joys!!

I also have managed to lose all of my scan photos. Completely broke down. I cannot find them anywhere. Normally i wouldnt have got so upset but i just think im really emotional just now so everything seems worse eh?

I have also just found out that a long term family friend and someone who my dad would class as the closest thing to his dad as he lost his parents at a very young age only has about a week left :( He has cancer and its spread to his lungs and caused his lungs to fill up with fluid. Hes not very well at all. Please keep him in your prayers xxxx