22-1-2009 - Whats next?

My mood while writing this blog: Exta Sad

Well I just got a call from my bf who's on jail for something he didnt do. Not to mention he's in another state. He went to court today and he isnt getting sentenced until April of this year. He facing 24-30 months, so that means he wont be home until around July of 2010. He's going to miss the birth of our baby! I try not to really think about it but it's hard not to. He's depressed now beause he's not here and I try to make him feel better. I would be mad and wanting nothing to do with him if he really did what he's in jail for, but thats not the case. Someone (his cousin) in another state has been using his name and getting in trouble... One day we were just hanging out on a normal day and the us marshals came to pick him up and transfer him out of state... this was back in Oct and I was four months pregnant. We are now just hearing how much time he's facing. This is a federal case so he most def gonna have to do all his time! He has no background so hopefully this helps some.

I know once everyone reads this their gonna say how they couldnt imagine not having their bfs/husbands around during their pregnancy/birth but the truth is... I couldnt imagine it either. I have a banner on my myspace that says... You Never Know How Strong You Are Until Being Strong Is The ONLY Choice You Have... and right now I dont have any other option.

This website is the only connection I have to the outside word since he's been gone I havent really felt like doing anything, not to mention Im 33 weeks preggo! Once my job found out I was pregnant they found a small dumb reason to fire me...Also my friends have just totally abandoned me all together. We have been friends since freshman year in highschool and were basically inseparable! I have no idea why and I have to desire to find out...They were like sisters to me and for them to distant themselves from me in my time of need is just unexceptable.

So here I am addicted to this website. I spend alot of my time on here not only to get advice from experienced moms but also not to be judged.

Also my bf's mom passed away six years today from breast cancer... one more thing for him to be sad about while behind bars!

Now that I got that off my chest I can get back to my two year old who has been running around screaming even though it well past his bed time!