31-3-2009 - 3 Week Update

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

So it's been three weeks since I gave birth. This website used to be my life before I gave birth... I was so addicted but now I barely have the time to fix a sandwich let alone be on the computer! Sad to say but my lil man is a cry baby. He wants to always be in someone's arms (mostly mine so he can eat). He wants to nurse ALL the time but he is still a lil peanut. He is just beginning to fit into new born clothes, this is crazy because I brought ALOT of clothes before he got here but they are all 0-3 months or above. There is no way he an fit into anything abouve newborn!! I also brought packs of size one and above diapers and of course he can't fit them, so in addition to me buying clothes Im buying diapers!

My bf is still in jail, he gets setenced in a few weeks, then I will know how much time he is getting. Hopefully nothing too long but hey... I'm been alone all this time... so a lil more time aint go hurt. He is really having a bad time because he has to have surgery within the next week beause he has a lump on his chest. Its very large so it has to get removed to see if it's cancerous (his mom died of breast cancer six years ago). This is really scaring him beause he has never had surgery before on top of that he has to go through this all alone. I'm just hoping for the best and looking forward for his court date. At least I have the support of mine and his family.

On another note... Darius' father is still in jail (dead beat) he's facing life but who knows how much time he will get.I'm not really following up wuth his situation because I can care less. Now sine he's locked up all of a sudden he wants to talk to his son... yea right. He could have talked to him for free any time he wanted before he went to jail but he didnt and now he wants me to accept collect calls from him to talk to Darius. Of course I'm not accepting any calls because I can thinks of a million things I can spend my money on than that! It's not that I dont have the money it's just that he left me high and dry when I needed him so I looking at this as payback!

Other than that everything is fine. I'm feeling good, may be a lil sleep deprived but I'm doing good. I keep Darius occupied with some backyardgain dvds I brought for him. That keeps him outta my hair for a minute! He still loves his brother too hard... he wants to lay on him, pat his back (toooo hard) and hold his hand! It's cute but he's just too rough!

I just brought a new camera so I will put up pics soon.