22-5-2009 - ....................

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Dariuan finally got his 2 month shots the other day. He had two i his thigh. He actually took them very well and didn't cry much. When we got home he ran a low fever and was a little fussy. He now weighs 10lbs 12ozs and is 21 inches long.

As far was Darius' father... he WAS found guilty and gets sentenced in September, but we all know he's getting life. I still have not heard from him, so that just confirms that he does not care about his son. His brother is afraid that he's going to try and take his life. I don't have anything to say about that. He think he has life, I also just got a life sentence as well.... I am now a single parent for the rest of my life. At least where he is, everything will be handed to him ( food, clothes) whereas me... I have to go out and actually work for everything me and my son need.

I had an appointment to get get my mirena inserted but I had to reschedule bcause I had an asthma attack and couldn't make it. I haven't had an asthma atack in like 2 years and it's no joke. Not being ab;e to breathe is like the worst feeling in the world (besides giving birth)!!! I ended up having to go to the ER and get three one hour breathing treatments. It was terrible! I feel better now, but I still loose my breathe if I move around too much.

I speak to my bf like every other day. He's holding up fine and is anxious to finally meet his son. I plan on taking him in a week or two. He may be getting released sooner than we think. His lawyer finally got acess to the "evidence" the prosecutor had against him and seeing that makes me wish he would have went to trail. They had pictures of the person who was using my bf's name and they clearly show it WASN'T him! They guy was tall stocky and dark skinned, my bf is the exact opposite. I know for sure he would have won his case. Now he has to have a background. I know it's going to be REALLY hard for him to find a good job, if any. It's just not fair at all and every time I think about it, tears come to my eyes. I'm still trying to be strong but it gets harder and harder every day. Hopefully everything falls into place when he is released.