15-5-2009 - Waiting

My mood while writing this blog: Happy

When my husband and I (b/f at the time) decided to try and start having a baby the first time I just stopped taking birthcontrol and let nature go to work. I didnt really put in much extra effort. The only thing I did differently is not stand up after BDing for a while. That's it. I didn't stress over ovulating, CM, position, BD, nothing. But not that we have decided to try for our second I have become a different person. I track my ovulation, take notice of my CM, and demand my DH and I BD a lot more(which is not a bad thing) Last time I was pregnant I didn't even take notice until I was already past 6 wks. I was just like one day "Oh, I haven't had my period." And then I tested. It only took 4 months to get preggers last time so i don't know why I am so worried about it now. I constantly think about it, and have trouble getting my mind off it. My poor DH doesn't even know of my new obssession. I am afraid I will scare him out of wanting to try. I hate being patient and just want to have another baby. I am afraid all the extra worrying and stress will just hurt my chances, ecspecially with it happening so easily last time. I know I just need to calm down with it but it is already hard, And we have only been trying a month. Poor DH, I need to calm down!!!!!!!!!!!!!