14-1-2009 - BFN number 2

My mood while writing this blog: whatever

Ok so I was going to try and wait longer to retest but I am such a POAS-aholic and DH bought me some more tests and they were just staring me in the face... tested this past Saturday (what would have been 1 day before I was due for AF if I have a 30 day cycle) And now I have tested on this lovely freezing cold Wednesday morning. I hate these stupid digital tests too.... There isnt really a way you can trick yourself and say "Hey I think I see the other line just ever so slightly" Nope instead in big ugly letters it says perfectly clear, "N-O-T P-R-E-G-N-A-N-T" I wonder if maybe at firsts the test makers thought "hey we should make it go in big flashing red lights!" but then it was too expensive. I am still paranoid to go to the gym or start on a diet for fear that I might be preggo and its just not showing yet... I mean after all last time I got BFN's 5 days after AF was due and then in the next month a BFP.... and DH hadnt been home since 22 Oct.

Ugh... I just want this to happen so I can finally hold my little human! I will test again on 20 Jan if I still have no AF. I have a dr appointment on the 21st so it would be nice to know either way before then. Anyway thanks for reading!