16-1-2009 - Even bigger what the Hell!

My mood while writing this blog: Freaking out!

First let me say (this is so off topic) But we really need to get new smiley faces to go with our moods... having said that please enjoy my smiling guy with a grill!

So Yesterday after completely losing all hope after my morning BFN with an early responce I went to work and then to the dr to get my prescription. They did not want to do a beta test to check my levels but did do a blood serum test to check if yes or no. So after waiting what seemed like an eternity.... the girl at the lab says she is sorry it took so long because she is not sure what to rule it as. There are two lines but the one is so faint that we are not sure. "We can neither rule out pregnancy or confirm, come back and retest in 48 hours". I FREAK OUT!!!! I gave up and had accepted it and now this! I tell DH who just laughs at my rediculous behavior and tells me I am crazy and just be happy. So this mornign I decide to take my last HPT and what do you know... there are two freaking lines! One is definatly lighter than the other but seriously.... There are two freaking lines! I think I am preggo again! SO I get dressed and let the dogs out, make breakfast and then head off to work. "rrrrrr-put" "rrrrr-put" OMG Car will not start. I cant just call out because I open the school in the mornings. Thanks alot! I finally get my BFP and I have to ride my big in 10degree weather the mile and a half to work at 6 am! Thanks alot who ever s listening up there!

So I have this appointment on next Wednesday that was supposed to be for testing to find out why I keep losing babies but I guess now it will be to check on my new little human. So so far there have really been no major signs though it is super early. Boobs have been bigger and I have been starving and tired all day but thats about it. I am kinda nervous though because for a while I have had cramping.... nothing too crazy, it just feels like a few days before AF is due. Wish me luck and I hope I have bfp buddies soon!