08-9-2009 - HSG

My mood while writing this blog: relieved

:::: I wish the dr had given me a lolly pop like my smiley guy... I earned it!::::

So Here goes! I got up and showered and it was raining so hard that my dogs wouldnt even go outside to go potty. I wore PJs cause the thought of wearing jeans after having something shoved into my hoohaa was just too much. There was lots of flooding on the road ways and all I could think was, "Please God, let me catch a break for just today, please let me get to the hospital!" So I got there and I went to the lab to take the stupid required pregnancy test (supposed to do it yesterday but there were closed!) so went and did that and found radiology and talked to the receptionist who informed me that my appointment was pushed back due to a malfunction with one of their xray machines.... GREAT! I had already taken the mortin the dr told me to take 30 minutes before my appointment! I hadnt had breakfast and was starting to feel a little yucky so I went to the little coffee place for a bagle but the bagle was only $1.50 and they had a $3 limit on credit cards so I bought coffee for a bunch of other people. (done my good deed for the day!) I ate half of my bagle and then I fell asleep in the waiting room... it was 10:15 when she brought me into the room. It looked like a room out of a horror video game that took place in a mental hospital. So I instantly got nervous but after chatting with the nurse and meeting the dr, I felt better.

:::::::TMI ALERT!! TMI ALERT!! DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU WANT TO HEAR ALL THE YUCKY DETAILS THAT GO ALONG WITH AN HSG::::::

So I get in my little gown and then get up on the table and first I get "cleaned" with yucky, freezing stuff (made me jump!) first just on the outside and then he put in the speculum and inspected my cervix (said it looked good, awesome since I was nervous about that bump I had been feeling) and then he cleaned my cervix with the same cold stuff which really made me jump and was pretty uncomfortable (I mean come on, DH hasnt been home for almost 4 months and DH is the only thing that goes in there so I guess I just wanst ready for any prodding, even if it was only a q tip!) We were laughing because I made the comment that it must be easier to be a lady dr now that shaving is in style (if I had more hair it would be all crusty from the cleaning soulution) So the laughing helped me to relax a little more. The nurse said she had had the HSG done before so that also helped. The dr recomended that I put my hands above me and hold the pillow since I wasnt aloud to put my hands anywhere near my hips (unsanitary) He gave a little warning and put the cathedar into my uterus. LOTS OF PRESSURE LOTS OF CRAMPING.... its like your body is trying to tell your brain "Hey somethings going in a hole that it shouldnt be going into!!!!!" Then he had to inflate a balloon on the tip of the cathedar to keep it in place. He took out the speculum and I slid up onto the table. It was no where near period cramps because period cramps dont happen (at least not to me) on the cervix! We watched everything happening on a monitor, pretty cool! You could see that the cathedar was close to the top of my uterus and he injected just a little (now that felt like a period cramp) and it spilled out of my tubes (he took a picture) then he injected a little more and we saw more of the shape of my uterus and more dye wehnt through my tubes... I always wondered about the pictures they show you in school about what your tubes and all look like. I always thought the ends of the tubes, where the overies are, looked like little hands holding the overies... and they really do! He pulled the cathedar out a little and injected a little more dye. The shape of my uterus was very clear and to me looked like it should have and according to the dr was "almost too perfect" He commented on the shape and on the size saying both were great. He took out the cathedar (THANK YOU!!!!!!) and then he reviewed the photos he took and commented on each one, "tubes look nice and open and normal, uterus is the perfect shape and just the right size I would expect" but then he pointed to a white spot, an area that the dye did not fill because obviously something was there. He said it wasnt an air bubble (if it had been it would have floated to the top or moved around when he moved the cathedar) so it had to be either a polyp or a fibroid. He said he would pass the results and findings onto my normal OB and he recomends that I have an ultrasound to get a different perspective and angle on the polyp/fibroid or whatever.

SO, of course I have already done some digging and have found that 20-50% of women will get FIBROIDS in their life time and of those, only 5% will lose a pregnancy as the cause. Fibroids are generally on the outside (so this may not apply to me because my white spec was clearly on the inside) There are a few ways to remove a fibroid but only a few that are safe for pregnancy later on. Then I looked into POLYPS... these can be just as common but actually seem to cause miscarriages more than fibroids do because generally they are on the inside of the uterus. The can sometimes act as an IUD would and could prevent implantation or could cause bad uterine circulation (weird because those were the exact words of the chiropractor the other day!) Polyps can be removed in a procedure similar the the HSG and most testing and experience shows that after a polyp has been removed the "infertility" issues seem to lessen as well.

So I am feeling pretty good about this as of right now. No major abnormalities and yet, there is still a possible answer for why I have been miscarrying. I am pleased so far! I truely hope that this was the reason for my miscarriages and I truely hope that we can fix it so it never happens again! Thank you God, for finally giving me somewhat of an answer!

I am still feeling a bit crampy and my urethra is killing me (why hasnt anyone redesigned the speculum yet???) Its a good thing I have the antibiotics otherwise I'd get a UTI. I think I will stay in for the test of today. Tomorrow is beach day with my sister though if it is as yucky out tomorrow as it was today then I think we will still get together and maybe we can belly dance like old times... hopefully tomorrow I will feel back to normal and will have enough strength to get back to my work out/ healthy living routine!

Thanks for reading guys... I love you alllllll!!!!!!!