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02-10-2009 - Consult

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OK, so today was my appointment with the dr... in short, I have no answer for why we have lost four babies and I never will. We talked about my HSG results and he says that the bump that we saw was maybe 2mm and probably just a flake left over after AF or something. We talked about all of my blood test results from back in May and how everything, blood clotting, thyroid, everything is normal. So there is nothing absolutely nothing wrong with me. Nothing to fix, nothing to change, nothing to do differently, nothing to try... just nothing. I am perfectly healthy, things are shaped right, sized right, things are open like they should be, blood is completely normal. He said that after all we have been through that I deserve to at least have the bump looked at though he is almost certain that since this AF it will be gone and there will be nothing in there. So I will go in on either the 23rd of this month or 10th of next month to have him look at it with a camera and if there is something in there they will remove it.

I just feel terrible. I just wanted something, something we could fix. There is NO reason, not a single glimer of a reason for any of my losses. What the hell does that mean? How many times am I going to have to do this? I feel like I will never have a child. I am doomed to spend the next 10 years getting pregnant and losing every single one. I wonder when it will be too much. When will I give in and just stop? How many times can I seriously go through this with out losing my mind?

11 Comments on Consult

aussiegirl80 - Sunday, 4 Oct
(((hugs))) I am so sorry that there are no answers for all of the heartache that you and your DH have been through, please take care xxx

littlesunshine - Saturday, 3 Oct
Im sorry you dont have any anwsers for your losses

butterfly-angel - Friday, 2 Oct
So sorry hun....Its kind of bitter sweet - good that you are healthy - but sucks that there is nothing wrong that can be fixed....Its so frustrating having no answers...thinking of you xx

wyattsmommy - Friday, 2 Oct
Im sorry you didn't get any answers. Have they done a chromosome check w/ you and your DH to make sure everything is okay with that? A friend of mine had multiple miscarriages as well and everything health wise w/ her & her husband were great there was no reason why it kept happening she got pregnant again and her doctor put her on progesterone and asprin not that her progesterone levels were low when they were checked but her doctor just wanted to try it anyhow she has a happy healthy little boy now. It might not hurt to ask to try that when you get pregnant again it won't harm anything to try. Good Luck hun I hope everything works out for you!

soon2mommyof2 - Friday, 2 Oct
I'm sorry. I wish you had answers. It is so hard to not know and to have to have this happen 4 times is so sad. Keep pressing the issue with your OB. You have to be your own advocate. If you have been "worked up" and every thing came out "normal" have they decided to "work up" your husband? Do you have any genetic history on either of your sides that you know about? Have you or your husband been exposed to any thing enviornmental that could be causing problems? Once again I am sorry. I wish you had answers for you.

cpalmer - Friday, 2 Oct
im sooo sorry hun, i can not imagine not knowing, u must feel so lost, i feel sick to my stomach just thinkin about it, i had 3 m/cs before they even got down to looking for answers and during that time was the hardest.... the good thing is u ARE perfectly healthy which is alot more then some of us can say so if there is nothing to be fixed i KNOW in my heart that u will one day have ur beautiful bundle of joy! i agree with canadian, maybe have them look into that?? hang in there hun! im praying for u all the time! much love xxxx

girlinterrupted - Friday, 2 Oct
Oh hun, I am so sorry. I was really hoping they would give you a definite reason. Hugs xxx

RainbowRach - Friday, 2 Oct
((hug)) I know this is hard. I went through the same thing when I was told there was nothing wrong with me. My doc still went ahead and gave me baby aspirin and progesterone, I am not sure if this is the reason I have Emily now but it might be worth thinking about for your next pregnancy x x Much love, Rach x

NinaBo-Bina - Friday, 2 Oct
You know unfortunately it's all in God's time. We can't change his will for us. Just keep praying for a positive outcome. Good Luck!

mrsw - Friday, 2 Oct
You poor baby. You're so young and you've been through so much. Having no answers is so frustrating I know. That's why when they found this small problem in my uterus, I jumped at it. It may have nothing to do with what happened but since I have no answers I hold on to everything. I think you're doing the right thing by having him check on it again. You have nothing to lose. Losing babies is so painful - after 2 m/c I said to my husband "I don't know if I can do this again" and you had to go through it 4 times. My heart breaks for you and for all of us in this horrible nightmare. I wish there were answers. Take care of you. I'm here to listen any time.

fruitful - Friday, 2 Oct
That is such a tough question, em. I hope you find your answer soon with the conception and healthy birth of a bouncing baby boy/girl!

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