03-6-2009 - boyfriend is being a jerk!

My mood while writing this blog: upset

ok i just need to vent. my boyfriend got off work today and i had called him to go pick up my car from a parking lot because it had a flat tire. he was supposed to take it in somewhere to get it fixed because he thinks there is a slow leak, but he didn't. so that bugged me. his excuse was he has counseling, but i haven't had transportation for 3 days now and i have our wedding on June 26th that i still have to do EVERYTHING for. anyways.. he gets home and i told him to take my son with him to his counseling appt. because i was feeling really terrible today and my son was fussy and i needed some time to rest. he takes my son then comes home and hands him to me and is like "here, he was bad at ricks". and i'm like okay? you've had him for an hour and already you can't handle him? so i got a little upset considering i never get any time to myself. we have NO food in the house because we can't go grocery shopping until he gets paid tomorrow, so i've been feeling like crap and not being able to eat anything in the house because all we have is pizza which i cannot STAND when i'm pregnant. and he knows that. so we kinda got in a fight after the whole him taking my son thing. then i thought we were fine. so he asks me "where's our blender" and i told him we threw it out because it was broken. i asked him what he was going to eat and he goes "nothing." then i said "why are you lieing?" and he said "because i can". so then i got upset again but i just didn't say anything. then i was hungry so i was going to order some wings & a salad from pizza hut and i asked him if he wanted anything and of course he did so i was like well do you want to just call and order it? and he shook his head and started laughing and i said i was going to pay for it and he goes "good for you". then he comes over and sits on the couch and acts like nothing happened and said something and i just pushed the computer off my lap and started crying. am i being too emotional or is he being an as*hole? ughhh i feel like such a baby but i feel like he shouldn't have to be so mean all the time.. then he gets into this whole fit about how i never do anything and i don't have a job and he is up at 5 in the morning every day and i sit on my ass all day long. idk i am probably just overreacting..