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01-4-2009 - My heart aches - Dr called

My mood while writing this blog:
crying

Well….

Finally, after a waiting for my Dr to call me.. she finally calls. Hoping that it was just some misc random news about something she forgot.

But it is not.

My bloodwork is not back as of yet, but the radioligy results are. There appears to be a bright spot in the baby’s intestines, something about an echogenic bowl. So I am now being refered to a high risk doctor, to further look into this, with more ultrasounds, bloodwork and possibily an amnio.

It breaks my heart. She talked bout how it could be this, and that can be fixed at birth, and how it could be that –which can not be fixed… there’s medicine for this, none for that, treatment for this, none for that… I just sat at my desk, and I cried and I cried.

My appointment wont be until next Wednesday, and results wont be in until another week after then.

It seems so unfair. All I wanted was a healthy baby, I didn’t ask God for a boy or for a girl, just a baby… a healthy baby. And maybe my baby is healthy and perfectly fine.

It just seems like a cruel joke…. .But I am a lovign person, and accepting as well. I know no matter what happens, I will get through it, and I’ll pray that God gives me the courage and strenght to continue to care for this child no matter what is wrong with him.

I feel like I was one of the few people who didn’t care about these test and their outcome….I didn’t stress over it. Yet here I am… possibly facing having a child that might have some complications.

I just want my baby to be born, and I just want to hold him already. I love him so much.

3 Comments on My heart aches - Dr called

camerons mom - Wednesday, 1 Apr
My prayers are with you and the baby. I have faith that God will take care of you both, there are many times I don't understand why things happen the way they do but I know that God is always there watching, listening and supporting and I know he works mircles. Working in a hospital I have seen alot which has made my faith stronger. Plus growing up my baby brother was very ill and they weren't sure if he would live but God healed him threw time and after he was 3 yrs old he became well with no more sickness. He was seen by over 100 specialist in a room at 3 months old and they all told my parents we have never seen anything like this and we don't know how to treat it everything will be experiamental treatment and we don't know if it will work. I come from a family of three kids I am the oldest and I have two young brothers. Anyhow my baby brother came threw it all the testing, experiamental meds to treat, and numerous surgeries.It was not easy for us as a family but I think it was my parents strong faith and belive in God that got us all through plus all the prayers from family, friends and church family. I hope somehow this may help calm you knowing that my baby brother Ryan survived he is 22 yrs old now and very healthy even after being sick for so long. The Doctors told my parents at one point that Ryan might not live or make it and God proved them all wrong. So my prayers are with you and I pray everything will be alright and fixable or better yet a mistake and he's healthy as can be. God Bless and be with you and your boy.

Angel-baby - Wednesday, 1 Apr
Try to stay calm and strong until you know for sure.. (better said than done) But trust me, you will love this baby no matter what complications or abnormalities he may have.. I will be praying for you as I have been in your shoes and it will not be easy till you know 100%.

larryslady - Wednesday, 1 Apr
Everything will be alright!!! Just be strong..

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