06-4-2009 - No hope

My mood while writing this blog: soso

I have talked to my Daughter over and over again. She will not change her mind and has an apt for the 15th. She refuses to consider other alternatives. Says she couldn't give it up if she carries it. She says she wants her baby to have a farther. I can't change her mind. I even told her that I would raise the baby until she is ready and she says no.

I have finally stopped crying and emotionally I am feeling a little better the last few days. As for me I never had an LH surge this month according to my fertility monitor. I have lost hope and know that this will never happen for me. I am thinking about hypnosis to rid myself of the OCD of having another baby. I really can't take the tourture any more.

I am so happy for all of my friends hear that got there BFPs and those who are finally holding there precious child.Thankyou for all of you who have been so supportaive to me.