15-10-2007 - ARCHIVE --- My first pregnancy experience

My mood while writing this blog: nostalgic and sad

THIS WAS MY EXPERIENCE WITH MY FIRST PREGNANCY - BEFORE THE MISCARRAIGE... I JUST MOVED IT FROM MY PROFILE PAGE SO I CAN HAVE IT AND SHARE MY STORY IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED

October 2007 - Well, this is my first pregnancy and my emotions are all over the place right now! I have been with my partner for about 4 years and our relationship is in a good place right now. My fears and worries are pretty high right now, but I do have one comfort --- which is my boyfriend's support! I was not convinced yet that I wanted children at all so this pregancy was a big surprise! I really haven't had morning sickness (thank goodness), just a little nausea throughout the day but even that is getting better by the day!! yea!! I am tired all the time and my breast are really sore but that's the worst of it so far.....we'll see how it goes! I am hoping and praying that everything goes well and I end up with a healthy baby!!

11/19/07 - Well I wanted to start writing down my "journey" so....I have experienced so much already that I haven't put down into words. I have had all the emotions in the world from scared-to-death to worry to excitement.....but I think it all boils down to at this moment I feel blessed. I am a bit of a worry wart but I am really trying to relax and enjoy the pregnancy. I guess I am lucky (I read/hear stories about other moms-to-be's horrible morning sickness and other symptoms) as I haven't had it all that bad!! I have already gained about 6 pounds and have been told I'm "showing" - I just feel fat!! :( I have been really sensitive and feel like a crybaby lately! I will be 12 weeks tomorrow and am excited to be almost done with the first trimester as I will feel more at ease about having a healthy pregnancy. I am still adjusting to the fact that I am going to have a baby....a role I wasn't sure I wanted to take on - but our plans aren't always Gods plan!! I wish all of the moms-to-be out there good luck and send you a God Bless with your journey to motherhood.

11/29/07 - Well, we got through Thanksgiving!! I loved the fact that I could eat some great meals and be lazy for the few days of the Holiday! I usually worry about gaining the holiday pounds but not this year!! lol...It's weird becuase my nausea has been the worst it's been this week!! I thought the symptoms were supposed to get better not worse! I can't wait til I get some energy back because I just feel tired all the time still. I wish I knew the sex of the baby...that seems to be most of my anxiety-excitement right now...I want to go at least "window shopping" for stuff and start looking at names (I've decided not to think to much about a name until I find out the sex). But other than that everything is good....just that I'm dreading Christmas shopping - mostly because lack of energy!

12/03/07 - Well made it to the second trimester!!! yay!! But I continue to be very tired all the time....but have a hard time falling asleep now. I am also getting pretty bad headaches which surprised me because I very rarely had headaches before now!! I guess I had a rough day today....everything and anything was getting on my nerves and I felt like I just wanted to go home under the covers and sleep the day off!!!! I'm sure the pregnancy hormones have a lot to do with it, becuase I'm not usually like this...but other little things had to go wrong to add to the frustration of the day like my bank messing up on my deposits, work was a little rough, running late for everything, etc.....Well, hopefully my week gets better becuase it's only Monday!!! :(

12/08/07 - I went to my OB appointment this week and have gained almost 9 pounds!!!!! :( uuuugggghhh I am soooooo not happy about this!!! I know this is a blessing but I hate gaining weight becuase I have had issues with gaining and losing practically my whole life!!! I can't help but think about losing weight already after the baby is born!! :( .......But the doc couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler and I was kinda nervous for a minute but something good came out of it....we got to have a quick ultrasound to hear the heartbeat!! It was great even though it was short! The heartbeat was 160 and he/she was really active in there!!! It was great to see... I got a printout of the little picture and my baby is now starting to resemble a baby!!!! I am sooo excited about that. Its kinda like I feel more of a connection with the baby now that I can visualize her/him in there!!! I know I'm probably reacting like a first time mom but......I AM!!! I have an appointment on Jan 2nd for another appointment and an ultrasound so we are gonna try and find out what the sex is!!! YAY!!! That is also my official 4 year anniversary date so if we get to find out that will be a VERY good aniversary!!!! soooo excited, can't wait........I hope everyone else is having a great experience!!!! God Bless!!!!

12/20/07 - Well Christmas is upon us already!! This year has went by sooooo fast!! I hate Christmas shopping! I was so exhausted yesterday because we went shopping for hours and it was really late when I finally got to bed. I got a little nervous cuz when I went to bed I started feeling pains in my stomach, I was figuring it was because I was sooo exhausted....hope all is well. I do get two weeks off starting Sat. for Christmas break so I am soooo looking forward to that!!!!! But overall I feel ok still. My back hurts a lot of the time and I feel "stiff" in my back and hips sometimes when I have been sitting or laying a while. I think I feel the baby moving but not for sure...my mom says that it is probably the baby. I have been feeling a little stressed about stuff lately but trying not to let if affect me. I feel out of shape (fat) and that kind of gets me down sometimes but I have been getting a light (30 minutes, minimal resistance) workout on my eliptical trainer lately to make myself feel better. I am spending Christmas holidays with my boyfriends family so I'm not gonna get to see my family on Christmas :( we are a close family and rarely spend holidays apart but we have spent every other holiday with my family and he wants to see his family so I don't mind compromising. Well I hope everyone has a great Christmas and healthy pregnancies!!!