25-11-2008 - 29 weeks... still praying

My mood while writing this blog: nervous

So I am 29 weeks today, yay!! That is a blessing. Yesterday was prettty eventful with a wide variety of emotions. So I was kinda emotionally drained by the end of the day. I'm feeling a litte more together (better) today. So here's the story....

The perinate doc comes in the morning and says "how do you feel about monitoring your own diabetes, insulin shots etc. if you were to go home in the next few days".....what?!?! Of course I was ecstatic and nervous at the thought. She said after the ultrasound and fFN test and consulting with the diabetes doc and my regular OB we will discuss that as a very likely option because I have been stable. So they moved up my ultrasound to have it that day.

I go to the docs office and first she does a cervix check and says my cervix is still closed and she can feel the stitch still holding on. The baby even kicked the doc as she was feeling my cervix. lol I keep telling everyone she kicks me HARD right on the cervix!! Then they do a transvag u/s to look at the cervix.....as soon as they get the picture up my heart starts racing there is no longer a funnel, the fluid is all the way to the cervix!!!! I just said omgosh that is a LOT of water there. The doc says yes there is. So turns out that my cervix has thinned all the way out and my fluids are all the way to the cervix. The doctor called it a bulging bag of waters (BBOW) she said that was the actual medical terminology. So we discussed that more than likely my waters are going to want to break soon since there is nothing there but the stitch. Sooo...needless to say we agreed I am not going home. The scariest thing is that my fluids could rupture at anytime. Doc says we are going to hope for another month or at least a few more weeks but we cant tell. I must of looked as scared as I felt as the doc commented on the look on my face. We did a fFN test and then ab u/s to measure baby. fFN test came back negative but the doc says she doesn't trust it. go figure. anyway, baby is fine she is at 3 pounds!! yay!! I think her measurement for length was wrong because her legs were down by my cervix and the u/s tech didnt want to be pushing around that area. But she continues to move a lot and she is doing a lot of practice breathing and she looks perfect. We tried to get a 4D pic but she would not cooperate!!

So the rest of the day I was very nervous and completely consumed with thinking bout my water breaking or going into labor and delivering her soon. I'm even scared when I get up to go to the bathroom cuz I am just picturing how my cervix and flluids looked and get nervous about it breaking when I'm out of bed! But I'm just trying to stay calm and positive thinking. After all, I have made it to 29 weeks and she is bout 3 pounds. I know there are many success stories of babies that were born at 29 weeks or earlier, so that helps. I'm just praying for as many days as we can get from here......

I can't wait to see what she looks like, to hold her, to love her outside the womb, to start our life together, and above all to know that she will be healthy!! So friends please continue the prayers or positive thougths as we could definately use them!! Hope everyone is doing good!!