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03-7-2008 - remembering the past

My mood while writing this blog: content

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I remember this time last year like it was yesterday. Even though I think my daughter's biological sperm donor is ..well just that, we had an amazing time last year and the very next day, 4th of July, we conceived the most precious baby a mother could ask for. I had only known him for 3 weeks but we had already became good friends. He was helping me get over my broken heart from my ex of 4 yrs. He made me smile and laugh, he brought me flowers and sent roses to both of my jobs. He bought me cards that sang funny songs and we walked hand in hand down the beach on the weekends. It was a summer fling. We knew it was just that since he was from out of town and only there until his job was complete. But it's a fling Ill obviously never forget.

We sat in traffic that stretched for 3 miles trying to get onto the island to watch the fireworks on the 3rd of July 2007. We had a cooler in the back of his expedition and another couple in the back seat. I was driving and we were listening to music, drinking a couple beers while stuck in traffic for nearly 2 hours. The sun was setting on the Gulf and the people in traffic were the people you want to be in front of while stuck in traffic for hours. As the beer ran through our bodies we all had to use the restroom. I waited, Riley's father could not. So he gets out of the truck to go relieve himself in the woods since we were just stuck there and obviously not moving any time soon. Lo and behold once he was "going" so were we! and Ill be damned if Im going to wait. So I started to drive, slowly but driving. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing him running towards the truck trying to hold up his pants. Oh it was hilarious. The people behind us were laughing so hard. They actually stopped traffic for a minute so he could catch up. Once he got back in, traffic stopped again. We offered the people behind a beer or two but they already had theirs! We finally made it to the Island but quickly realized we were going to be driving around for hours trying to find parking. Well the whole point of going to the island was to go to a place called " The beach house" and everybody in Bradenton was going there as well. By the time we made it there, finding parking at the beach house was like finding a needle in the haystack. Brandon ( her sperm donor) jumped out of the truck, ran up to one of the guys at the beach house and came back to the truck and told us to get our things he found us a parking spot! No kidding, that quick and right in front of the beach house!!! Wow, how'd he do that!? The valet person said they didnt have any more spots left. Anyhow, so we grabbed our things..camera, cooler, blankets..etc etc and walked towards the beach. We found a beautiful spot in front of the beach house right on the beach. The band was playing jimmy buffet and the setting sun was a beautiful orange over the gulf of mexico. We laid out the blanket, grabbed some drinks and played in the crashing waves with sparklers in our hands. We chased each other down the beach, danced and held each other. We joked with the other couple and I wished that night would never end. The sun set and the fireworks started. The other couple lit sparklers all around our blanket and I might want to mention that we caught my sheet on fire lol. The fireworks were beautiful and once they ended we grabbed the cooler and walked around the island jumping from bar to bar. It was a great night, one I'll never forget. We woke up the next morning and decided to do what 99.9 % of americans do on the 4th-BBQ. We went shopping, bought food, beer and cards. We packed the cooler and all 4 of us went to the pool in my condo complex to hang out for the day. We had a good time playing a drinking game, swimming and eating some good food. Brandon and I decided to run upstairs for something, may be more drinks and well I decided that I, well...we'd " take a quick break" and well, the rest is history. Brandon's visit to S. FL ended a lot sooner than expected-2 weeks later actually. He left on a Friday. And I found out I was pregnant 3 days later.

As most of you all know, Im a single mother and have been since I found out I was pregnant. Brandon still til this day has not came or even called to check on his daughter. He actually even changed his number on me when I was 5 months pregnant. He turned out to be a real loser but something amazing happened that day & Ill never forget the day leading up to one of the most amazing days of my life-the day I got pregnant with my beautiful, perfect, lil american girl.

*** Don't worry about the people in your past, there's a reason they didn't make it your future **

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3 Comments on remembering the past


teresa08 - Sunday, 10 Aug
I just read your story and it is very touching. You are such a strong woman and you and Riley are beautiful. It sure is his loss to not be in your lives.

mom2boy - Tuesday, 5 Aug
I just read your blog and your story about finding a place to live. I must say you are amazing. I don't know that I would have the strength to do what you do. Anyway, I would request child support. This guy should take responsibility for his actions, I cannot believe he would just change his number like that. Selfish doesn't quite cover what he is.

choppork5426 - Saturday, 5 Jul
i love ur new blog.it was great...sorry the way it all ended.but ur doing a great job by ur self!!