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|01-5-2012 - I have OFFICIALLY Joined Team...
||My mood while writing this blog:|
I went in for my regular U/S that I have every other Monday and it was just supposed to be a basic internal U/S to see how my cervix is doing and while I was laying there I asked the tech if there was a chance to know the gender. She said that if i wanted to know there was a possibility that she would be able to tell me. At that moment I kind of froze because I figured like I mentioned before, I might want to wait until 24 weeks before i found out so in case something happened, there would be one less attachment. But of course, i have no patience whatsoever, so i blurted out, "Yes, I want to know". So after checking out what she needed to check out, she zoomed in on the legs... at first she said "Baby has legs closed"... and i thought - well there goes that. But then she said that if she wasnt completely certain of what the baby was, she wouldnt say anything... but she was almost positive that those were BOY parts! I wanted to cry!!!
Dear Angelo -
I was heart broken the second my midwife told me that because my water broke so early with your pregnancy, that there would be a GREAT chance that my body would not tolerate that, and therefore I would lose you. My precious baby boy... After you were born, and to see your face, and how much you looked like your Daddy, it broke my heart even more to know that I would never see you smile, that i would never hear you cry... that i could never hear you say MAMA... or tell me you love me one day... That was October, 26th 2011. But when on Valentine's Day 2012 I found out I was pregnant again... and then to find out that my new due date was October 26th 2012... and now to know that your baby sibling will be a BOY... I am now certain this was because of you. You know how much I love your Dad and your big sister Naliya... and although the timing wasnt right to have you in our lives... you have sent me your baby brother to complete our family. Thank you Angelo... you have given me the biggest blessing when I needed it the most. I am beyond thrilled that we will have our girl and our boy. Just remember Angelo, just because you are not physically here for me to tell you that i love you everyday, doesnt mean that my love wont always exist for you! I will always remember that you were my first son, and i smile everytime I think about you, sure, i cry right after... but i will always love you.
So... here is to TEAM BLUE!
I am so in LOVE!!!
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