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gemmasmummy has 248 days to go and is now in week 4
	Age: 27 Country: AU Province/region: NSW City: LEETON Partner: daniel Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Yes Due date: 22 Oct ,2012 Occupation: proud mama
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05-7-2009 - my everyday nightmare

My mood while writing this blog:
fat

so everyday i wake up and see the same old yukky me and im sooooooooooo frustrated, i work out an hour a day and have changed my diet and still only shed 1.5 kilos arghhhhhhhhhhh, about 6 yrs ago i started eating just 1 meal a day thinking i would get thin and the opposite happened and i blew up like a balloon i am now literally half the person i use to be and i often forget how much weight i have lost and how far ive come, all i think of is how fat i am and how ugly i am about 8 yrs ago i went bulimic and went down to 69 kilos at the time i thought i looked great but looking back at pics now i just looked really sick, i have a larger frame so being to thin dosnt suite me but sometimes i go clothes shopping and look in the what i call " skinny girl isle" and think id kill to look like that again and then becoming bulimic pops back in my head and i know its not healthy i even spoke to my doctor about it, anyway im gonna be brave and share some pics of how i look now and how i wanna look, i love being curvylicous and all trust me i think curves are hot but to a limit, pls if u have anything negative to say dont comment i already think everything bad possible about myself and my weight and i cry all the time i do not need anyone else adding negative thoughts to this

thanks love tashxxxx

now

how i wanna look

maybe even a little thinner i think

12 Comments on my everyday nightmare

ready4mygirl - Friday, 10 Jul
hey sweetie I haven't been on in 5 days so I just got a chance to read your blog. Honey please don't think so negative about yourself. You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. You are one of my closest friends on this site and you such a wonderful person. Now about losing weight... hun you just had a baby. It will tae a little time for the baby pounds to shed off but they will. Personally I think you look great . Shit I know I need to lose some weight but right now I am more concerned with house work and sleep lol. How is miss gemma?

JadesHotMom - Wednesday, 8 Jul
hey love ; dont think that i have neglected u ! i just finallly got on the comp so its easier to reply & stuff . do what makes u feel HEALTHY! not skinny bc skinny is not cute! cut alll sugars out! drink water! no soda no candy. eat for fruits & leafy greeen veggies!!! and eat things that make ur fiber intake high.. take vitamins also! and start jogging. joggging helps alot . gooodluck sweety i hope to read a blog that says ur in love w ur body & feel great~! no bulemia!

sam-4-bob - Wednesday, 8 Jul
Hey :) sorry havent been on much been run ragged!!! I think you look fab!! tho i do wish i could just cut a full chunk from my tummy somedays !!! remember we just had babies , as my mam says it took nine months to get it der it will take it to get it off lol xx Tho some days i feel like thumpin her for sayin it i know shes right xxxxxxx

JaidynLeighsMommy - Tuesday, 7 Jul
Hey Hunn!
Don't worry or stress yourself out over your weight, just think precious Gemma is what you got out of all of it, and all of us mommies go through this at some point! Just remember your a beautiful girl, and thats all that matters! :) if you need to talk feel free to send me a message, hope to talk to you soon!

brie(blue) - Tuesday, 7 Jul
I think many of us feel the same way you do. I gained 60 pounds during my pregnancy and it does take a toll on your self esteem. I just had to remember the beautiful and amazing reason why the weight was gained. We have all been given such a precious gift and so what if some weight came with it. You will lose it and if not who cares you look fantastic!!! Hang in there and remember your little angel loves you just the way you are.

*dcsfantasticfour - Tuesday, 7 Jul
Hun, you just had a baby.... I know you know yourself the best but skinny is NOT normal. Have you talked to your Dr about a possible thyroid problem?? My husband is 6 foot 2 in and 300lbs. He has a thyroid problem and just can't lose weight. he went on meds for his thyroid but they made him feel like he was on drugs and discontinued the meds.

daniandbebe08 - Monday, 6 Jul
do LOTS of walking and lots of tummy crunches! my belly has gone down alot since I started walking

daniandbebe08 - Monday, 6 Jul
you just had a kid and it take a long time to get back to normal. Im still trying to get rid of the weight from my first born! I was surprised how fast I lost the weight with Kaidence, I wasnt expecting it. So far Ive lost 8lbs in a week! But I do more than an hour a day, and I eat 3 small meals and 1 snack! Your doing great and you will reach your goal soon!!!

gabemom - Monday, 6 Jul
Hey girl! Don't beat yourself up, by the time gemma's a year that will be gone. Keep working out. Don't drop your calories. Your body will go into starvation mode and hold on to what you have because it doesn't know when it will get more. If it makes you feel any better, I am 5'6" and 193 lbs I was 158lbs when I got pregnant. I initially lost to 183 when I had him, I was 216. As you can see I've gained 10lbs back. I think your profile is great. You will lose that tummy. Mine is all over!!!

helenwantsabub - Monday, 6 Jul
Hi tash, you are not alone in that department and I go through the same motions. I hate looking in the mirror at times and hate trying to dress up for nothing sits propwely, and I hate photos, cos all i see is me and fat. I think back like 10yrs ago i wasskinner and had a better figure and now find it frustrating when i like to get nice attractive clothes, and feel the urge to to lose weight, i try and only get so far..
No one is judging you, and you aren't fat, you are perfect the way u r, for it suits you, its your built..lol.. i blame my mum for mine, the damn genetics. So don't let it get to you, keep up the exercise, eat healthy n hope 4 the best..

SarahLJ - Monday, 6 Jul
Well I think that you look fantastic hunny, do not worry. I know exactly how you feel because I don't have a small frame either and I have the same tummy as you. Well I did before I got really bloated. I admit that I do feel the exact same way as you do, and no matter what I do to lose the weight it falls off the wrong areas and yes it is really annoying and upsetting.

KR - Sunday, 5 Jul
Oh luvy duvy!! Hunni thats insane normal! That tummy is what happens after we have children... there was a poll question on this today as well (still might be there about losse tummies.. read it) so dont worrie. My tummy looks the same!! Ill send you a picture tmrw in private and maybe you wont feel so bad. Remeber we held 8 pound babies under that layer of skin and we wouldnt give our babies back for a tighter tummy!! So dont you worrie. I have lost 40 pounds of my pregnancy weight and still have another 27 to go. We have alot of tummy crunches to do thats it!! You have a great frame though, you have a medium to small frame and really dont look bad at all, its a baby tummy!

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