28-4-2008 - 2 weeks on and its still Week 5

My mood while writing this blog: tired

I went to the doctors on saturday. he calculated my due dates as 24/12/2008 - christmas eve - that makes me 5 weeks, 5 days pregnant. if that is the case then it means that i recieved my first positive pregnancy test at 3 week 3 days into my pregnancy. is that possible????

I took a pregnancy test on 12th April, the test can give results up to 4 days before a missed period. my menstral cycle is 35 days long, that means that if i took the test on the earliest possible day to recieve a positive then the docs calculation are correct and i am due christmas eve. i just can get over the fact that i was so early finding out.

I am kinda disapointed, every week I have been looking forward to reading how my baby has been developing and now i have been put back two weeks. oh well.

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My visit to the doctors was very short and a little disappointing. I didn't go to my usual doctors as they are in the next town and I thought it would be easier for me to go to a doctors in the town I live in. The doctor never tested me to make sure I was pregnant. He didn't explain anything to me, not even about how public/private fees work, what kind of foods I should eat, or activities to avoid. He only gave answers to questions I asked rather volenteering information to me that he might think important for me to know. all in all i felt like he just wanted the €60 for my visit and for me to leave as soon as possible. When I mentioned home births he just said no - Bad idea, never giving a reason for why he felt like that.

the whole trip to the doctors consisted of me telling him i was pregnant and him telling me to choose a hospital and ring them to book an appointment. I would really like to change my doctor but a part of me feels like i should stick with the one i am with almost out of a sense of obligation.

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I have spoken with my partner about it and I we are going to change doctors. I feel much better now.

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I rang the hospital today and i got the date for my first visit, 02 July. At first i thought this was the date for my scan but then i realised that its just a check up and the scan will come a month or so after the check up. that too was a bit disapointing. oh well. all in good time hey?

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Still don't 'FEEL' pregnant. I am really having trouble believing this. the morning sickness has eased up a bit. nearly vomited today but beside that 2 minute spate I have been feeling alot better. body feels groggy though, like i have eaten too much junk food. I am tired too, lack of sleep and Harry (the ghost) keeping me awake is not helping.

Now there is a strange worry that not alot of pregnant women have to consider - should I worry about the presence of ghosts around my unborn baby??? Harry is normally a well behaved ghost and doesn't give us trouble but it is something I guess I should consider. normally he just moves from one bedroom to the other and sometimes switches the lights on or off. there is no bad feelings or vibes coming from him so usually he doesn't bother me. I guess I will just have to trust in the fact that he has never harmed anyone before so he should have no reason to start now.