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| 06-10-2009 - Feeling so sad |
My mood while writing this blog: not good |
Tomorrow is Finley's funeral...
I am so scared I'm not gonna get through it. I've been to funerals before but this is my son!
I'm not in a great place right now, I've been in tears most of today. I just keep thinking how did I get here??
Yesterday I started properly bleeding again! I have now been bleeding for almost 9 weeks and I have just about had enough. I really want to start ttc again but feel like I shouldn't have to be.. I should be 30 weeks pregnant with my beautiful boy.
I have decided to take a break from the ttc after loss page, I feel like I don't have much I can say to help people right now. Hopefully it will only be for a couple of weeks, hopefully I will feel a bit better soon. I will be checking my profile so please let me know any news (BFP's etc) I am also on facebook so if anyone wants to keep in touch that way my email is jaynewhittle@yahoo.co.uk .
Love you all xxx
8 Comments on Feeling so saddtphillips -
Wednesday, 7 Oct Hi I hope today went ok. I can't imagine how tough it is for you at this moment. I hope you are able to to move forward and I,m wishing you all the best. I have not been chatting on the forum lately as I feel so lost and frustrated, I still come and check my profile and have a peep at the conversations. I have added you on my facebook min41 -
Wednesday, 7 Oct Hugs to you sweetie. Tomorrow will be hard, but you need to do it to be able to say your goodbyes and begin the healing. We will all be thinking of you and maybe when you are there not only will you feel the love of your little angel baby but you will also feel the love from all of us here on the forum. I hate it that you are still bleeding, that just sucks. I am the opposite and after 9 weeks haven't even had a spot of blood! What is going on with us? I have given up waiting and started taking Clomid today, just to see what will happen. All my love for tomorrow sweetie. xoxo firsttimer -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Jayne, I'm so sorry. I will be thinking about you and your partner tomorrow. I know there is nothing I can say to make this any easier. Just know that whilst we can't be there with you tomorrow, we are still with you, just not in person. Let it out tomorrow, and don't try to be brave. Grieve for your baby, and hopefully after tomorrow everything may start to get a little bit easier. xx heids -
Tuesday, 6 Oct I'll be thinking of you lovely. You have more strength in you than u ever thought possible, this awful, awful time will pass. Sending you so many thoughts of peace at last & hope u will be back soon, love Heidixxx firstmommy08 -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Jayne ~ I'll be thinking of you & little Finley tommorrow. You'll be in my prayers. You don't have to be brave & you don't have to be strong. Be exactly what you want to be..... ((hugs)) Sam mrsw -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Oh hun I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say except I'm so so sorry. Thinking of you. aussiegirl80 -
Tuesday, 6 Oct ((hugs)) I wish that there was something that I could say to help you feel a little better, but I don't think that any words would be enough. I will be thinking of you tomorrow. butterfly-angel -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Oh Jayne - I don't even know what to say. I can't even begin to imagine what the day will be like for you. Wish I could be by your side - give your hand a little squeeze - a big hug....You will be in my thoughts and prayers. As for the bleeding - I totally understand, haven bled for 11 weeks myself. Its so frustrating - you can't even try to move on - because you are constantly reminded - constantly re-living it. I wish there was something I could do to make this easier on you, to take away some of your pain. Know that I am always around for you Jayne ... ~Hugs~