16-5-2009 - week 35.. this one is a rant...

My mood while writing this blog: In physical pain!

This week I was tired and feel huge and lots of Braxton Hicks contractions! and lots of fetal hiccups. I am tired I go to bed early. I am getting those charlie horses a lot and got one yesterday morning that made my calf muscle stick up when I stretched it and it hurt like a deep bruise, I massaged it and it went down but I'm having trouble walking with that leg now. It hurts. I wish I had a heating pad to put around that muscle. It's been over 24 hrs. I've been massaging it and stretching it. My belly hurts at the top part of it and my skin is itchy.

And my feelings hurt as well. My Dr saw me this past Wednesday and said "Aaw lots of stretchies, I guess no more swim suit." that was hurtful. Then at the beginning of the week I was waiting in a waiting area for my care to get detailed when some lady rudely woke me up to ask me when I ws due! then the preceeded to tell me I don't look old enough to have any kids. so I told her I am 30 yrs old and she said, "You look like Juno!" My husband acts like I am discusting and it hurts my feelings. He use to give me foot massages and back massages and now he doesn't seem to care its is hurtful b/c I am so sore. I am so ready for this pregnancy to be over or atleast not so painful. The Dr said he already looks to be about 6lbs. But who really knows. I have gained almost just as much weight as I gained when I delivered Chloe and she was 38 weeks and weight 7 lbs 8 oz. I am running out of Clothes to wear for work and since it could be any time now until June 15th or so that I have this baby I don't want to buy any more maternity clothes. I don't have the money anyway. I am saving for maternity leave and it seems like everything is breaking! I accidentally broke the ironing board, today the toaster broke, the blender rusted out last week and so I had to throw that away too... and the kitchen sink is falling apart!!!! What the hell is happening!?!??? Oh yeah, before all of those items broke the vaccume broke and my husband had to replace that! I feel so overwhelmed. I know if I weren't in pain it wouldn't be so bad so I take a Tylenol and fall asleep! Then nothing gets done! I'm thinking about going to get a pedicure just so I can get a chair/ back massage. One good thing about this week besides surviving and knowing things could be worse is that I go to use one of my baby shower gifts which where these iron on transfers and a ton of onsies to decorate, I had so much fun doing that. I hope this baby is healthy and I recover soon b/c I want to dress him up and take pictures of him and take him out in his stroller! I can't wait until he gets here! but if he is too big! I will have trouble. well, that's pretty much it.