24-5-2009 - 36 weeks

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Well this week has been another week of braxton hicks contractions and pelvic pains. I feel like I have got to be dialated. I know women can walk around with their cervix dialated a little, for weeks before they give birth. And, since this is my 3rd child and things aren't as tight as they use to be, muscles ligaments and things, I bet that's all true. My poor belly looks so bad, remember I am only 4ft 11" and I had a 9lb 12 oz boy when I was 18 I'm 30 now. but the stretch marks and permamnent damage was already done from that whole ordeal. Now this baby has finished off the belly I think. My belly also has little veins. It's cute behind clothes but not pretty to look at naked.

I am having troulbe standing up from a sitting position but once I pull my self up with my upper body I can walk pretty well at a slow speed. This morning I walked about 1/2 mile to the pool in our subdivision and then after I laid out (with a sundress too huge for swinsuit HAHA)- then I called my husband to pick us up b/c I didn't want to walk back home. I'm tired. Plus I got a sun burn. It was over cast today too!

I bought the most recent issue of Glamour magazine hoping it would be a good hospital read incase I went into labor this weekend. The one with Renee Zelweger on the cover. It was a good one I read almost all the articles. Glad to see a few full piece swimsuits in their and not so many skimpy bikinis since I wont ever be able to wear a bikini again.

I have a very short work week this week. I am so tired too. I really don't want to go to work on Tuesday. That bums me out. It's work just for me to stand up and I can't even go to the bathroom. I mean sure I pee 15 times a day! But Number 2!!!! Well I have tried several things and it is hard when my little man is taking up all that room.

I have been dreading the labor and delivery so much! C section or vag delivery either way is going to be horrible. I'm so scared. I am going to try to let things happen as natural as possible this time. Last time I had been induced with my daughter and I think I ended up with a cervical tear b/c It took me 3 months to heal. I had huge clots and the Dr. didn't care. ALso I didn't know anything was wrong. I think this time will be better b/c I have competent nurses and a great Dr to care for me so hopefully if Lord willing things will be fine and I hope for a fast recovery so I can enjoy atleast the last part of the summer. I will have so much fun with the baby. I'm soo looking forward to taking care of him. Just very nervous about the delivery since I am getting so big and it hurts down there already. I'm so scared things are going to be very very unbearably painful like when I got induced with my daughter. It was horrible.