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|12-1-2009 - 24 weeks
||My mood while writing this blog:|
i'm sleepy :) a good sleepy, though :)
i totally missed out on writing a blog last week (shame on me!), so... opps :) i suppose i was busy- but i'm going to be honest and admit that my memory fades five minutes after something happens. im not sure if it's because im extra tired recently, or because we're so busy so often! whatever it is... it's a lovely way to forget about how silly i can be during pregnancy :)
crankiness, continued: not soooooooo bad the past couple of weeks- but im definitely a touchier woman than usual. estrogen does this to me, and im no fan of it. my poor husband probably has a helluva time dealing with me, the military and becoming a new father. fortunately, he's an old hand at this and is managing very well :) i, on the other hand, can go from cheery and sunny- to nearly hysterical if he so much as starts cooking dinner incorrectly! poor guy :) at any rate i keep this in check by napping when i feel like it, walking when i don't, and remembering to breathe and take chris into consideration.
taking it's slow time. i should be grateful that i can still sleep on my tummy, back and any which way i please. tha ti can still breathe, and that i have no stretchmarks. and i really am... but ive been feeling *this side* of fat/chubby since 10-12 weeks. it's becoming old news. at least people can TELL im pregnant now, but i still feel soooooo small!
chris and i go to the gym mon-sat. we've worked our way up to 30 mins on the eliptical, and 30 minutes on a stationary bike. i do about 10-15 minutes lifting light weights (which is doing wonders for my arms :) ).
i walk the girls seperately, 2x a day. for their benefit regarding training. schnauzers are VERY reactive, and my girls not only react to stimulus (dogs being walked, dogs in yard, joggers, walkers, freaking newspaper blowing in the wind, grains of sand, you name it.. they woof!) but they react to one another as well. so seperate training/walking is working wonders. even if it IS exhausting walking 4 miles a day.
as a side note: i feel like no matter how much i exercise and watch what i eat.. im going to gain at least 30 lbs this pregnancy. my goal was to keep it around 20-25. i started off around 124, and am currently clinging to 136 as if my bloody life depended on it. that's 12 goddamn lbs- and im only 24 weeks!!! i have gained slowly and steadily- but i'll be damned if it's because my body wants it that way. only with eating right, and exercising EVERY DAY have I been able to keep off the other 20 i would have inevitably gained had i sat around eating what i REALLY WANTED.
so needless to say- im feeling a little sad this past week. i can no longer tell whether the weight gain is baby related, muscle or gut. i can't stand to put weight on- and despite working out feverishly (as i can, and as if safe for baby) everyday, i still pile on the lbs! ive had huge issues with anorexia in the past, and it's taking all my self control to continue eating. i swear the only thing standing between me, and a disorder is 1) i love my baby and don't want to hurt her, and 2) i know it ruins your body.
i think im just being dramatic :) i KNOW that my baby weight is baby weight, and that it will burn off. my mother gained 60lbs during both her pregnancy's, and lost it all.
im just looking at numbers here and freaking in my head. i was about 10lbs over my "goal" when i started this pregnancy (baby weight from my early 2008 pregnancy) at 124- and i want to weigh 115 again (oneday). if i break 150, that's 45 damned pounds to lose!! ACK ACK ACK!
i think im going to go cry now!!!!!
good as ever :) we're slowly amassing our baby things. my mom has offered to buy the babies crib, which was super nice. we wont even be using it for about 8 months- but at least we will have it in case we decide to start transitioning her from the amby to it earlier.
chris' mother continues to be a big stick in the pot. what a b*tch! chris called her to ask if she would purchase the monitor that we want (since she hasn't done shit for the baby, and we are rounding on the third trimester here). he didn't ask her directly, but any person/mom knows when their child is asking for something. her exact words "oh, maybe we will pick it up if no one else does"
we are doing this baby thing from scratch with no help from anyone! which we accept, and have taken to the task not only repsonsibly, but with happiness! i can't fathom spending 80 on a pair of jeans, but ill be damned if i don't have the 150$ swing for my newborn. the point is: we have NOT gone out asking for any handouts. we are 2500 miles from family and WONT be doing a baby shower, we have NO baby items from previous pregnancys.
my point is, the witch could give a little. my family has been poor my whole life- and my parents have still managed to try and pitch in. they care enough to at least show the sentiment- and when they can toss a few bits of cash our way, they do. HIS mother is very well off, and is apparently refusing to be apart of this at all.
fine. newsflash for her: you don't want to be a part of it now, you won't be later either. she's got so many strikes against her for her behavior during my last pregnancy that my cord is VERY short. damned if it be due to pregnancy hormones or not. she is pissing hubby off equally, which means my concerns and anger is stemming from something that at least resembles reason.
life is good :) the schnauzers are happy and healthy, the hubby is mostly OK (his job sucks!), and im pregnant, but feelin' great :) just waiting for may to get here. it's freaking worse than waiting for christmas as a kid!!!
hope you ladies are doing well! i feeel better now that ive vented (a lot)
4 Comments on 24 weeksML28
- Friday, 30 Jan pregnancy is the one time in life that you can gain weight and not feel too guilty about it. keep making healthy choices for the baby (and yourself of course) and once you have her you will be SO busy it will just fall off. also 12 pounds is actually not much weight at all, many women gain alot more at this point. i think i was up to 30 at this point...so that should help you sleep better ;) take care. lilmissk
- Friday, 16 Jan Don't worry about the weight. You're very active, so it'll be gone in no time after she's born. My belly seems really small, too. People can tell that I'm pregnant, but I just feel pudgy! Try to ignore your MIL... if that's possible! Debra
- Wednesday, 14 Jan About the weight gain- at least after you give birth, you should loose at least 10-15 lb right away. Then unless you are VERY lucky, it will take about 3-4 months for the swelling and your doubled blood volume to disappear which accounts for at least 5 lbs of your weight gain. If you nurse, you should loose weight faster as you will maintain a higher metabolism rate. If you can continue exercising after you've healed (relatively), i'm sure you will loose the rest of the weight soon! Don't forget that your baby needs you to gain the weight- so 12 lbs at 24 weeks is pretty good and most likely all baby weight. Boob and doubled blood volume is usually about 5 lb. Placenta is 5-7lb (which is fully formed). Plus about a 2 lb baby and some extra fluids puts you at about 12 lbs. Just know its healthy and not fat. Its baby and its good! babyyags
- Tuesday, 13 Jan Everything will be ALLLL worth it when you lay your eyes on your beautiful violet!
Hang in there!! not too much longer!