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|12-2-2009 - aggravated, jealous and 50 weeks of pregnancy
||My mood while writing this blog:|
a wee bit sad
our buddy met a girl last year, got her pregnant and married her. i can't really say much about quick marriages, chris and I were married just a few months after meeting.
what annoys me is.. well- her. i REALLY dislike his wife. on top of living off of military men (her first husband was an army guy, our friend is a marine) she's also rude, snobby and extremely lazy. my husband and i let them live with us when she first moved to hawaii- it's hard to find places to live while you are waiting for base housing. within 2 months i had to kick them out- she had been rude to MOST of the people we had over, we paid for groceries (that her pregnant butt ate tons of) and she was deragatory towards my animals (and our foster ones).
anyway. after they moved out we tried to stay friends with our bud, but it really didn't work. im guessing his wife disliked us just as much as we her. she used her pregnancy as an excuse for EVERYTHING (including massive weight gain in the begining) up to and including bossing her husband around. grrr. they never call or write to hang out with us, unless they want or need something. we weren't even invited to the baby ashower (even though we gave them the babies first gift, 180$ graco sweetpeace)
ok to my point: they had their baby yesterday :( i know i should be happy for them.. but i honestly can't bring myself to it. we got the text message just before bed, and i ended up being awake all night *despite being exhausted* thinking about it.
ive been pregnant for 50 damn weeks, with no baby! i didn't just "oppsies we're pregnant" to my husband to get him to marry me... we planned it! our first baby was TOTALLY messed up and wouldn't have lived long after birth... so we terminated at 22 weeks. we let my body recoop for a few months (during which time she conceived.. AT MY HOUSE) and we tried again.
So i guess im just upset :( i work really hard to make sure this baby is happy and healthy. i eat freakishly healthy, stopped my "partying" ways *ie. i stopped smoking pot, big deal* and gave up cigarettes. i go to the gym daily, walk my dogs for several miles a day, do all my housework, have good meals made, i do a light aerobix workout several times a week, do yoga (the stretching feels AMAZING!)... EVERYTHING I do is to make labor, birth and bringing home baby easier! chris and i finished buying baby stuff last paycheck, and it's not just cheap shit either! it's all super nice stuff that we had to plan for, save for/etc.
you knnow what she did? ate whatever she wanted, gained huge amounts, complained about everything, never lifted a finger in my house (or hers, from what it looked like) while she lived here, critisized others for how they were doing things (ie. us), smoked cigs after the first trimester passed, brought home a puppy that she doesn't take very great care of/isn't totally safe for a baby. never did an ounce of exercise, and has her husband (who is a marine and just had shoulder surgery) do everything for her.
why the hell do i try soooooooooooo hard when we both have the same damned results!??!?!
also, i WANT MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she is cuddling and feeding and oogling over her cute baby as we speak, she is DONE with being pregnant (something she never even TRIED appreciating, and resented) and gets to start her new life with her baby. my husband and i want our baby SOOOOOOOOOO bad!! they are excited to dump her off at a babysitter and go to a bar.
im just so upset :( its mostly just jealousy. i should have had my baby in september, and instead im sitting here WAITING for the next 3 months to hurry by. :(
3 Comments on aggravated, jealous and 50 weeks of pregnancylbakkar
- Saturday, 14 Feb Don't worry too much about it. I'm sure Violette will be smarter, thinner and better adjusted than their baby (haha mean I know but oh well). You're doing everything you can to give her the best start in life and it's too bad that your friends wife couldn't suck it up and do the same. lilmissk
- Friday, 13 Feb I'm sorry you feel like that. I want my baby, too, but sadly we can't rush it. It's best if Violette stays inside a while longer. Just keep doing what you're doing. It'll produce a great result in the end. teamnewbs
- Friday, 13 Feb hey i know how you feel i have been pregnant since last april. a friend of mine just gave birth to her baby (that wasnt planned) last sunday, and the jealousy is crazy. plus i havent had a glass of wine since we started trying and proberbly wont have one until ive finished feeding. frustrating! time is starting to slow, and i am so ready to meet my little man. xxx