25-6-2009 - Giving birth to and breastfeeding rats?! Whatever next...

My mood while writing this blog: Impatient

Damn this pregnancy thing's weird...and it just keeps getting weirder! I had a dream last night (or should I say this morning...) that I gave birth to my baby only to discover it was not a human baby but a rat! Lol...(suprisingly not the first time I've had that dream, last time I dreamt that I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl but then informed the midwife at the hospital that I wasn't cut out to be a mother and I'd just buy a rat on the way home...lol.) I then faced the challenge of breastfeeding this rat...I was sat there with it cuddled into my tummy telling my husband that I was scared it would bite my nipples off if I held it to the breast!

Then of course there's the whole no sleeping thing...that's pretty annoying, I was up till 5 last night with painful B'hicks contractions..I finally managed to get some sleep only to be woken up by that dream, funny thing is on waking my first thought wasn't relief that I hadn't given birth to a rat...rather frustration that I hadn't givven birth at all! Lol...I think it took about 10 seconds for reality to hit me that the baby was very much a human and very much still inside me (I had to have a little feel of my belly before I'd believe myself though! Lol.)

I simply can't work it out, I've waited two years for this baby and all of a sudden I can't wait three more weeks! Lol. I swear three weeks feels more like a century to me at the moment I want this kid out so much yet I know I'll prolly go past my due date because that's what usually happens with first time mums! I wish I could find some patience from somewhere, I'm normally not an impatient person at all but I just DON'T want to wait another day for this baby to pop out! I keep talking to her, telling her that it must be getting boring in there for her and she should come out and meet the world (as if that's going to make any difference!) Lol.

Hope you're all good today ladies! :)

xxx