27-10-2009 - The Bitch is Back

My mood while writing this blog: Fed up.

Hiya Girlies

The Bitch is back with a vengence, showed up on Monday exactly as due. I had such a positive looking chart that I'd really got my hopes up high of getting a +ve this month, despite having a sudden bleed a week earlier.

It seems to be impossible to even imagine myself getting pregnant again now, never mind managing to have a healthy pregnancy ending in a baby. I know that stressing about the process and obsessing is counter-productive but I find that I cant think of anything else these days - I mean, I cant even lift my head off the pillow without checking my temp to chart so it kind of sets the obsessing & wondering tone for the rest of the day! GGGGGGGGGGGGGgggggggggggggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHH!!