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| 13-7-2009 - wally and leslie |
My mood while writing this blog: so sad. |
many of you may know im absolutley in two kids that arent mine named wally and leslie. wally is 5 and leslie is 3. They havent been in the custody of their parents for almost two years now. They stay with their aunt about an hour away from me. She is absolutley wonderful and takes great care of them. She does everything she can to provide and gives them a loving safe and healthy home. I have always wanted to adopt them and make them mine and be the mom that they need. They came up here this weekend and i had them for three days. We stayed at my parents house the first night and went in the hot tub (it was only 85* so not hot at all more like pool water) and played on the swingset my parents got for them. Saturday and Sunday we spend the days at my lake house. We went fishing, swimming, boat rides and made smores. We had a wonderful time. It was so nice having them wake up in the morning and crawl into bed with me while i tried to get atleast a half hour more of rest untill they were ready to be on the move. I told them how much i loved them every chance i got. I just saw pictures of them from today they went to the beach with their aunt and i just started bawling my eyes out. Im happy they looked so happy in their pics but i just feel like i missed it. I missed their happiness i missed their faces i missed them playing i simply just missed them. I love them as much as i love my baby girl in my belly. I just wish i was financially stable to take on a newborn a three year old and a five year old. I just cant stop crying i miss them so much. I just want them to have the mommy they deserve. They deserve to call someone mommy. They deserve to feel wanted and loved by a mommy. Their aunt is wonderful but an aunt is an aunt. A mommy is a mommy. Even twice Leslie called me mommy, I should have corrected her but i didnt, i didnt have the heart to tell her not to call me something she so very much wants. I didnt post the pics of this weekend but there are pics of them in my photo section, please take a look at these kids. They have been through more than you will ever know.
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