20-12-2009 - sick of zero progress!

My mood while writing this blog: frustrated

Well, back to the doctor again tomorrow, and I am hopeful. Although for the last few weeks i've been feeling pain and pressure right on my cervix, and the doctor sees nothing happening as far as softening or dialation. I worry that i'm going to go in again tomorrow and still see no progress! I have twins in there, and am very close to full term with twins.. I mean really - how is this body hanging on when most others are letting go in my same situation?? I keep thinking I feel different though. This morning I was awoken by multiple painful contractions, low back pain, a bit of diahrreah, and pain and pressure down there. All things that we're supposed to watch out for as far as early labor goes. But, as the day wore on, those symptoms fade away. I'm sick of trying to keep track of my BH contractions, because now I know they arent the real thing. I feel like my body just wont let this pregnancy go, and i'm so discouraged. When am I supposed to take my symptoms seriously? I shouldnt be waiting until i'm doubled over in pain to go to the hospital because I am high risk with two preterm babies on the way. What do I do?

Anyhow.. sorry for the rant.. thanks for reading!

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