18-11-2009 - I AM SO UPSET AT THIS MOMENT

My mood while writing this blog: ANGRY, SAD AND EMOTIONAL

I AM SO UPSET AT THE MOMENT THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO RELAX AND GET OUT OF IT, IT ALL STARTED YESTERDAY MY BOSS IS VERY SELFISH AND KIND BUT HE DEMANDS TO MUCH AT TIMES WITHOUT GIVING ANYTHING IN RETURN. SEE LET ME GIVE YOU A LITTLE HISTORY. THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT WORK HERE THAT THEIR ENGLISH IS LIMITED AND OR THEIR SKILLS ARE LIMITED BUT IS OKAY BECAUSE THEY ARE LIMITED AND SOME OF US ME INCLUDED THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO EXCUSE WHY WE CAN NOT DELIVER WHAT HE WANTS. HE DEMANDS DOUBLE OR TRIPLE THE JOB PLUS TAKING CARE OF OTHER TASKS THAT OTHERS CANNOT DO, I'VED ASKED HIM IS NOT FAIR THAT YOU DEMAND LESS OF OTHERS AND MORE OF OTHERS, HE DOESN'T SAY ANYTHING. HIS WORDS ARE IT SHOULD TAKE YOU 4 HOURS TO DO THIS TASK OR 15 MINUTES OR 8 HOURS. I MEAN THE LAST TIME I CHECKED I WAS IN AMERICA AND NOT SOME SWEAT SHOP IN FOREIGN COUNTRY. I KNOW GOD GAVE ME A BRAIN BUT AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT SUPPOSE TO USE IT. AS SOON AS I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT, I TOLD HIM BECAUSE MY PREGNANCY IS A HIGH RISK BUT DOES HE CARE OR EVEN CONSIDER THAT I AM DOING EVERYTHING I AM CAPABLE NOPE, HE SAYS I DON'T WANT TO HAVE THE SAME RESULT NEXT WEEK OR I WILL HAVE TO TAKE SOME DRAGSTIC MEASURES IN PLAIN ENGLISH EITHER YOU DELIVER WHAT I WANT OR YOU ARE FIRED. I HAD AN AWFUL DREAM LAST NIGHT THAT I WAS BLEEDING AND I DIDN'T KNOW IF MY BABY WAS DEAD OR ALIVE BUT I WAS WORRIED BECAUSE I AM NOT EVEN 7 MONTHS, I AM 21 WKS 2 DAYS NOT ENOUGH FOR MY BABY TO SURVIVE IF ANYTHING LIKE THAT HAPPENS. I CALLED LABOR DEPARTMENT ASKING THEM GENERAL QUESTIONS AND I KNOW THAT IS HARRASSMENT THEY TOLD ME AND THAT I AM PREGNANT SO I AM PROTECTED BY LAW, SHE GAVE ME LIKE 3 NUMBERS TO CALL. I NEVER WOULD OF DONE THE PHONE CALL BUT I'VE HAD ENOUGH ALREADY, I AM SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A BITCH BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. I DON'T WANT TO END UP WITH AN EMPTY CRADLE AGAIN A WILL FIGHT FOR MY BABY TO HAVE SOME PEACE. DO YOU GUYS THINK IF I ASK MY DOCTOR FOR FMLA SOONER WILL HE GIVE TO ME? AM I TAKING THINGS OUT OF CHARACTER? PLEASE HELP ME I NEED SOME SERIOUS ADVICE...