15-11-2009 - My Little Giant is 4 weeks old!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Wow, I cannot believe that 4 weeks have passed. Ok, he's crying now, will feed him and get back to writing this blog...hahah, Neil tried to give him the dummy, which he usually takes, very hesitantly, but he does take it, but this time, he just was not having any of it and he cried even louder, it seems he finally put his foot down.

Alrighty, I just wanted to make a note of everything thats happened these past 4 weeks, just so that I can remember the good old days.

Week 1 - was spent mostly in the hospital, I think that was the last time I had a really good nights sleep, cos the nurses took him for 2 nights of the 3 I was there. I didnt enjoy being there, but the funny thing is when I came home, I wanted to go back, dont ask cos I dont know either. I started off pretty good, giving him a bit of each breast and then a bottle, cos my milk wasnt completely in yet and that is what one of the Night nurses told me to do. That was going really well, he would wake up every 3 hours with that routine. Then on night 3, doesnt the day nurse tell me that I should not give him bottle anymore and just stick to breast completely. My poor child woke up every half an hour and eventually when the night nurse came to me at 3am, she told me that he's hungry. She gave him a bottle and he polished it, and from then on, the every 3 hour routine was completely out the window, I was cursing that stupid day nurse that told me to not give him the bottle. I could not wait to get home, but when I got home, I felt like my routine had been broken and I really really missed being in the hospital. I was just so emotional, and by Friday I was so confused, almost felt like I didnt know what I was doing and I wanted to cry for everything. Ofcourse then, that weekend, I got lots of visitors and I just was not in the mood for people, but then when they left, I would be so sad. I even missed my mother, and if that happens, then I must've been really emotional.

Week 2 - By now, my emotions still hadnt settled and Neil was supposed to go back to work on Wednesday and I cried, cos I was going to miss him so much, so then he stayed with me the whole week and irritated the shit out of me, so by the time he had to go back, I was so grateful. Got a lot sorted out though, registered him already, glad that is out of the way, cos Ty wasnt registered until he was 1. Went grocery shopping with Neil and my little man was so well behaved, he slept the whole time, such a darling!

Week 3 - My first week alone, all I wanted to do is stay in the room and get as much sleep as possible, close the door so that the maid doesnt come and bother me, but she just opens the door and comes right in and does whatever she needs to do and then goes out. Whats the point of me closing the door if she's going to come in anyway. I dunno how to tell her that if the door's closed, please dont come in. I love being alone in the house, and when she's here, it irritates me, cos she asks me about things that she usually does when i'm not here.

Week 4 - Little man went through a growth spurt and was waking up to feed every hour! I gave him some colic drops, thinking that he had bad winds or something, but I wanted to die, and the no sleep thing just does not make me a very pleasant person at all. Took it out on everyone!!! Thank heavens that only lasted a little while and he is back to normal. Still trying to figure out which cry is which one, I know that when he wakes up, he's hungry and then after that, sometimes I dont know if he's still hungry or if he's got a wind, but other than that, I think its going pretty well. I bath him every second day and he just hates it, screams his head off. He has this quivering bottom lip when he cries, its so cute and it just makes me feel even more sorry for him.

The challenge for this week now, is to get enough milk in my boobs to express more than 10ml's of milk. I know they say you should express after he feeds, but then there just isn't much left. So this week, I think I am going to express on my left breast and only feed him on the right one and hopefully build up my milk supply that way. I need to have enough milk in the freezer so that I can leave him with Neil one of these days. I started feeling a bit claustrophobic last week, not sure if thats the right word, but I just felt like I couldnt do anything, go anywhere cos he needed me all the time. Anyway, that was just 1 day and I do need a break, even if its just for a couple of hours.

Other than that, I would say that he's really well behaved. I even manage to cook, well the meals cannot take longer than half an hour, but atleast I do and they should be really gratefull. I do not take the kids to school or fetch them, that is Neil's job for now. I'm using the excuse that I cant drive for 6 weeks cos I've had a caesar...2 weeks left though.

Cannot believe that he is going to be 1 month on Thursday!!!! When do they start smiling, cos I honestly believe he smiled at me, twice!!! I know they say that its usually wind when they're this young, but I'm telling you, those were smiles!!!