15-5-2008 - #8 whats wrong with me?

My mood while writing this blog: infertile

I know it probably seems premature that im crying infertile and i have only been ttc for 2 months, But before this my ex bf was trying to get me preg. without m knowing for a yr..and it never happened. Now im trying and it's not happening. And before we established we wanted to ttc we had already been having unprotected sex for months!....I was sitting here last night seeing all the bfp's and getting excited like maybe it was my time. I should go test. It was like 4 in the morning..test was negative. I got back online and saw another bfp. This time i was not happy i was crying my eyes out. Why not me? Whats wrong with me? I thought maybe its cuz i took the test late. So i wiped my eyes went to bed in the arms of my fiance woke up and took that test this morning!!!.....it was still NEGATIVE. No sign of AF which is due today. No cramps,no bloating, no sore breast. Which is still around if even my AF was just showing up late cuz of stress. I dont know what to think. The only thing that has been going on unsual is i got this piercing pain in my upper torso that goes around to my back and my legs get cramped. It happened like 3 times this last week to the point of almost tears. i have no clue what this mean but 7 pg test in 4 days...I'VE GONE CRAZY