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	Age: 19 Country: USA Province/region: OR City: Mill City Partner: David Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: Looking
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11-4-2009 - What Next?

My mood while writing this blog:
Okay

Once again, David and I are together. This bouncing back and forth does not work for me, so fortunately I have the feeling this time it's going to last. The past couple of times I had an inkling that things weren't quite right. Now he says he loves me, instead of that he loves me but it just isn't the same as it was... I feel like we have some basis for a healthy and stable relationship. :)

On Monday I'm goin to be taking a placement test for college. In the fall I plan to be taking courses to become a medical transcriptionist since it's a two year education and will enable me to afford my son and self without having to sponge off my mom and step-dad anymore. Also, I will probably have the option of working from home so I can be both a bread-winner and an available mother to my son.

The question is, what do I do when/if my boyfriend does get the bigger place he's hoping for? If I move in with him, will I no longer be a single mother and qualify for the financial aid I'm hoping to get? Perhaps I'll be able to get work-study but I don't know if that would be enough to cover school and insurance for my son. I wouldn't mind having to go without doctor's visits for myself, but Devon's health isn't something I'm willing to take any chances with. I'd love to live with David, he's a great parent and working with him to care for Devon has actually been a very pleasant experience; not as stressful or difficult as I'd expected (though still not simple) but if it comes to choosing between having a full time dad available to Devon, and continuing my school...I just don't know what I'll do.

What will probably happen, is once David gets his place I'll go see the college counselor and see what my options are...

2 Comments on What Next?

elleanasmama - Monday, 20 Apr
i know this blog is a few days old but im new to the site, and this somewhat reminds me of me and the fatherof my child.we were together for 6 months before i got pregnant and he wanted to have a baby but when i was two months poregnant he said he wasnt ready to be with the same person for the restof his life, but iam in love with him. the thing is its been 8 months since then and he still isnt ready but when i try to move on he says he needs me and he wants to marry me he just isnt ready yet. its like he doesnt want to put the effort in he just keeps me hanging on

voncoco - Monday, 13 Apr
You can always keep your current arragements the way they are and you and babe can go and stay with David for visits. A few nights at a time. I highly recommend that until you are finished schol and are able to provide for you and your son you keep your lives separate. Take advantage of the assistance being offered to you. You are exactly the type of person it is designed to help. I am sure that David loves you and babe and I am sure that he intends the best toward you both, however I have learned that there is really only one person you can count on, and that is you. If you take care of yourself, without adding financial stress onto your relationship with David you guys are more likely to have a successful relationship. Remember families come in all different styles... you don't have to live under the same roof to be the best family.... as long as you love eachother and baby and treat eachother respectfully it doesn't matter where you all live. I hope this helps.

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