13-5-2009 - Major Whoops

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Since the begining of my pregnancy, I have claimed and honestly believed that there were two possible fathers for my son. David, my ex-boyfriend who I left for another man while as under the influence of drugs; and Michael, a boy my age who wanted a relationship I wasn't willing to give him whoen ended up dying in a car wreck.

Recently, when I reviewed the information (The ultrasound can be two weeks off in either direction when determining a due date/conception date) I realized that there is actually a chance that the man I left David for is the father of my son. Charlie and I were getting clean together but he was picked up by the police on May 14, 2008 and I broke up with him when I found out he would be doing time until Thanksgiving of 2009 because I knew I didn't have what it would take to make a relationship work under those conditions. After that, David and I ended up sleeping together a few times but he wasn't ready to be in a relationship with me again. The night with Michael was a one time thing mostly inspired by alcohol.

Michael has passed away. David is well aware of the possibility of Devon being his and has actually decided to be daddy even if his blood isn't in Devon's veins. Charlie...well charlie should be receiving the letter in the next few days...How will he take it? Do I owe him, more than "you might be a dad, but another man's filling the position"? What more can I do? How can I make this easier on David? Is that even possibile?