14-5-2009 - Proposal?

My mood while writing this blog: Slightly intimidated...

For the past couple of weeks it has been understood that David and I would one day get married. But the other day came as quite an awakening when he stated that the only reason he hasn't proposed is because he wants to be able to give me a ring. (Right now his job place is closing and he'll be looking for work at that point) I had no idea he was so close to making that leap. In fact, I remember him asking if the two years I would be in school would be a good waiting period because we both prefer a long engagement....

All this would be fantastic except for the fact that lately I've been moody. Scratch that; lately I've been changing between completely different moods, opinions...almost completely different personalities. At times I am so in love with David and can't see anything but him and our son in my future. Other times, I catch myself starting arguments and I'm afraid I actually want to chase him off so I can do this on my own and not have to be tied down...I feel almost numb at times....