09-8-2009 - Long Over Due Update!

My mood while writing this blog: exhausted

Well first let me say I am sorry for not writting more blogs! I so want to try writting more to keep y'all updated and for me to look back on..Well as you all know that have read my other blog getting this far 31 wks (YEA!!!) is trully a blessing from god...But just like getting pregnant and making it this far it has been a hard road. I wish I was one of those women who could say I had a GREAT pregnancy but I can not...I got diebetes early so now I am on ALOT of insulin. I got high blood pressure cant get find a med that either one I do not have a bad reaction..or 2 that will control it....And many more problems onto of those. They keep threating me that I will have to finish the rest of the pregnancy in the hospital but thanks to the good lord they have not made me yet... And to be honest I dont have a clue how I would with 4 kids and my niece I have during the week. So I just keep praying and depending on him to work it all out for us... I also have a secert prayer that when he knows she is safe on the outside let her come for my health and hers...But shhh dont tell anyone...lol...I am glad this will be our last we hope unless gods has another plan...I wanted my tubes tied but they told me NO :( So I guess that wasnt gods plan for now! But I know it will be a longgggggg time before we have another IF we do! I could not imagain facing another 9 months of this anytime soon! The only thing that gets me through is to know in the end we will have a beautiful little girl to celebrate and it will all be worth it... Tell me this is not God I just figured this out the other day my first miscarriage was in Oct 1999 and now 10 years later my due date is in oct..My Dr which I have seen since I was 13 for PCOD brought it up to me...So this is proof one should never give up cause I will be honest I thought we would NEVER have a baby! But here we are and the timing couldnt be better so God knew when the best time was! Well sorry this so long..