12-9-2008 - Surviving The Last Few Weeks.

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Im offically going mental by this point,i cant think of anything to do thesedays to keep myself busy im in no state to be going out i can barely make it to dannys house because of how tired i always am most people keep themselfs busy by nesting the last few weeks well this is no use to me as ive been like it since i was 28 weeks ive cleaned up that much that the house is now literally spotless! ive rearanged Megans clothes and nappys and lotions that much that i have now had them in every position of my room just to see where would be most conveniant im going crazy waiting around for her! everyone keeps telling me to make the most of it while i can because ill be so busy after shes born but how can i relax when i dont even know if im even in the very early stages of labour? my midwife doesnt do examinations to see if you dialating or anything so im no wiser how can i relax when i know she could come anyday now.. or not even for another month?so i feel like i need to have everything done NOW incase she does come now.. but now that everythings ready i have nothing to do so i just keep doing the same thing over and over each day and its driving me mentall!!!! these last few weeks are going to go by so slow ive had no loss of my plug.. my braxton hicks havent started to get more regular or anything so it feels like ill be like this forever! this last couple of weeks are going to go by as one big blur because im doing the same thing everyday ( cleaning) i just want this over with already!