07-7-2008 - Such a hard day!!

My mood while writing this blog: Angry & Sad

Today is the 2nd anniversary of when my mum passed away!! Part of me wonders how i've just carried on with my life when someone so important is missing?? Another part of me just cannot believe that i will never ever see my mammy again. I feel so angry that she was taken so young especially as she was so healthy one minute and gone the next!! So many people have told me it gets better with time but they're liers because it doesn't. Its such a stupid saying!!! It may get easier to pretend things are ok and that you just haven't seen her for awhile but the miss certainly doesn't. I'm gonna make sure Kian knows about her but I feel so sad that he will never truely know how special she was. I cant help but relive parts of that awful day. I hope i never have to experience anything like that again. It was horrific watching someone you love so much just slipping away and there wan't a damn thing i could do to stop it!! I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It has to be the worse moment of my life!!! :(

We little knew that morning,
God was going to call your name,
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.
You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.