09-5-2009 - Scary time!

My mood while writing this blog: Happy NOW

So havent been online since Tuesday as have been going through my first (probably of MANY!!!!!) stressful times as a new expectant mum. As you all know I have been suffering from incredibly painful trapped wind since the beginning of my pregnancy (GRR!) but on Wednesday morning i experienced a whole new type of pain in my lower left area, and on Wednesday afternoon (whilst in work) I had blood on the loo paper when i wiped after having a pee. After ringing my mum in tears (and being shouted at by my sister for not leaving work straight away!) I went to the Womens Hospital, as i didnt know what else to do. (My sister suffered an Ectopic pregnancy the first time she was pregnant and obviously this was the worst thought in all our minds)

I was in the hospital for over 3 hours (sitting waiting to see a doctor for most of that time!) and then had to have a urine test, internal & blood test...the doctor reassured me that everything looked as it should, but made me a scan appointment for Friday afternoon to make sure the baby is developing 'where it should be'.....as you can imagine, the wait between seeing the doctor and having the scan where possibly THE longest hours I have ever felt in my life!

Yesterday afternoon, along with my husband and mum, i spent another 3 hours in hospital. I had to have an internal scan as the 'pregnancy' (as the hospital call it) - as MY BABY! is still so small it cant be seen by way of a 'normal' pregnancy scan. So, as i'm lying half naked on the hospital bed with the scanner inside me (honestly girls, you have no dignity when your pregnant! haha) the Sonogapher tells me the best news possible, that MY BABY IS growing 'where it is meant to be' & everything looked as a normal & healthy 5 & half week pregnancy should look :o) ...at which point i burst into tears...she surely thought i was nuts! lol. She was loverly though and showed me the grey grainy screen with a black blob on (my womb), with a little grey gainy blob inside it....MY BABY!!...exactly 'where it should be'! (You honestly have no idea how happy i was!)

Afterwards, i had to wait to see the doctor who asked me loads more questions (yes i have had a tiny more blood since wednesday :o( and yes, i still have the lower left pain which is alot milder than it was - which they are more conecrned about than the blood!...) and therefore, 'I have to have another scan on Monday 18th May to reassure 'us' that the pregnancy is progressing as it should be...but there should be no reason why it isnt as everything looked exactly as is should at this stage'. Which means, (as you all probably know) the baby does not look like a baby yet, which is why they call it a 'pregnancy', and as it is still a bunch of cells, it does not have a heart beat until after 6 weeks....which is why i have to have another scan.

SO, as you can imagine, I am TORN between absolute delight! that they have confirmed that i am having a 'normal & healthy' 5 & half week pregnancy (despite the pains and blood...) but I will feel absolutely estatic & reassurred when i have had the next scan to confirm my little baba is developing into a healthy little baby....this may just be THE longest 9 days of my life!