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As most of you know I lost my sweet 2 month old daughter last year on March 29th, well her room and her crib has been the same as it was the day of her funeral. Well after putting it off for over a year I finally went in and did it, I went thru Ari's things and packed it up, I seperated the clothes she wore and the clothes she didn't, everything that smelled like her has been put in ziplocs and sealed. I know this might sound crazy that it took me a year to go thru her stuff, but it was so hard..it was hard to get myself to actually to do it to finally box up all of her things, it's like the last thing I had to do and I hung onto it as long as I needed to, I wasn't ready for so long. It was a mixture of emotions, it brought back so many happy memoried of her life, and some horrible ones of her death, but there were more happy memories than bad. This is such a huge accomplishment for me, I'm not sure what came over me, but I went thru and I got it all done!! Go Me!! I went thru all her clothes and other baby items, lotions, diapers and stuff like that took down the crib and actually gpt everything ready for Baby Ty's arrival, I truly think that Ari hand selected her baby brother and she would want us to be ready for his arrival, I know she gave me the strength to get thru it. I just wanted to share this with all of you, it takes alot for me to look in the mirror and actually be proud of myself (I've been so hard on myself since we lost her) So this is huge for me to be able to be proud of me!! Thanks for reading, I just had to share!! Sorry if there are mispellings or mistakes, I am very tired, I have a very sick hubby and have been driving to Cleveland OH and back too much this past month(he's in Cleveland Clinic) that's for a different blog though. I will post pics of the nursey soon. Luv & hugs-Julia
14 Comments on I finally did it
res - Tuesday, 12 May
I'm proud of you, hun!!!!
hollienjax - Friday, 8 May
Im proud of you and happy for you. That was just another step in the healing process. Im sure you passed your strength to your family in doing that as well. Keep moving forward and dont be scared
gixxerbabe08 - Friday, 8 May
your a strong person...if that was me it would have taken me much longer than that. u should be proud of urself i don't know how u go through something like that. it's good too that u remember more of the good memories usually people always remember the bad. well keep staying strong
hilary-n-tremayne - Friday, 8 May
well you did it when you were ready. i think if i were in that situation, it would have taken me awhile to do that myself. glad you got it all figured out! how have you been?
lisamarie8503 - Friday, 8 May
Julz - I am glad you got the strength to do this! I am so proud of you! I think of you 2 all the time believe it or not! Ari is going to be looking down on her new baby brother and taking very good care of him and your family. Congrats to you and your family :)
RainbowRach - Friday, 8 May
well done my darling, I can see why you are proud!! That must have been a very difficult thing to do, I hope this helps you to continue to heal and look forward to Ty's arrival x x
tracylouella - Thursday, 7 May
OMG it gave me goosebumps reading this. Good for you, i certainly wouldnt have the strenght to do it. My daddy passed away 6 years ago while vacationing visiting me, and to date i will not throw his stuff out... including his hair. So for you to do such an awesome thing, makes me feel like maybe its time I did it too!
Have a good one and thanks so much for sharing!!!
tto - Thursday, 7 May
I am so proud of you. I can't imagine what that was like for you to do. I totally get saving every shred of her- I would too. I really believe you did it when God allowed you to be ready. It wasn't time until now. Check out ourlittlehogi's blog about names in the sand. It's a lady in Australia who writes names in the sand of little ones gone to heaven for free. She did it and so did I. It's really nice. I have to say, that I try and treasure each moment with my kids and not take it for granted. I know more time with Ari would be priceless. Thank God that heaven is real and you will be with her again!
beckybear - Thursday, 7 May
What an accomplishment, you should be proud! I'm glad you were able to take this important step for you, for Ari, and for Ty. Sorry to hear that your DH is sick.
ChristineR - Thursday, 7 May
Oh Julz.. I am SO proud of you!!!! I can't even begin to imagin how hard that must have been. You are truly the strongest person I know! You amaze me everyday!!! I can't wait to hear about Ty!!!!!! Ari is his guardian angel!!!! sending much LOVE your way!!!!! GO YOU!!!!!!!
blackrussian - Thursday, 7 May
I bet she watched you from heaven and knows how much you love her What a precious little angel.
chloecupcake87 - Thursday, 7 May
aww well done
that wud ov taken alot ov strength and courage to do
so sorry 4 ur loss cant imagine the pain u must ov went thru
take care
xxx
LvBNaMommy - Thursday, 7 May
You are a strong beautiful person!!!! I am so proud of you, I can't imagine what you have been through hun!!!
Stay strong!
mamalvs4 - Thursday, 7 May
I CANT IMAGINE HOW DIFFICULT THAT WAS FOR YOU! but im proud of you too! stay strong mama
| 07-5-2009 - I finally did it |  My mood while writing this blog:proud |
As most of you know I lost my sweet 2 month old daughter last year on March 29th, well her room and her crib has been the same as it was the day of her funeral. Well after putting it off for over a year I finally went in and did it, I went thru Ari's things and packed it up, I seperated the clothes she wore and the clothes she didn't, everything that smelled like her has been put in ziplocs and sealed. I know this might sound crazy that it took me a year to go thru her stuff, but it was so hard..it was hard to get myself to actually to do it to finally box up all of her things, it's like the last thing I had to do and I hung onto it as long as I needed to, I wasn't ready for so long. It was a mixture of emotions, it brought back so many happy memoried of her life, and some horrible ones of her death, but there were more happy memories than bad. This is such a huge accomplishment for me, I'm not sure what came over me, but I went thru and I got it all done!! Go Me!! I went thru all her clothes and other baby items, lotions, diapers and stuff like that took down the crib and actually gpt everything ready for Baby Ty's arrival, I truly think that Ari hand selected her baby brother and she would want us to be ready for his arrival, I know she gave me the strength to get thru it. I just wanted to share this with all of you, it takes alot for me to look in the mirror and actually be proud of myself (I've been so hard on myself since we lost her) So this is huge for me to be able to be proud of me!! Thanks for reading, I just had to share!! Sorry if there are mispellings or mistakes, I am very tired, I have a very sick hubby and have been driving to Cleveland OH and back too much this past month(he's in Cleveland Clinic) that's for a different blog though. I will post pics of the nursey soon. Luv & hugs-Julia
14 Comments on I finally did it
res - Tuesday, 12 May
I'm proud of you, hun!!!!
hollienjax - Friday, 8 May
Im proud of you and happy for you. That was just another step in the healing process. Im sure you passed your strength to your family in doing that as well. Keep moving forward and dont be scared
gixxerbabe08 - Friday, 8 May
your a strong person...if that was me it would have taken me much longer than that. u should be proud of urself i don't know how u go through something like that. it's good too that u remember more of the good memories usually people always remember the bad. well keep staying strong
hilary-n-tremayne - Friday, 8 May
well you did it when you were ready. i think if i were in that situation, it would have taken me awhile to do that myself. glad you got it all figured out! how have you been?
lisamarie8503 - Friday, 8 May
Julz - I am glad you got the strength to do this! I am so proud of you! I think of you 2 all the time believe it or not! Ari is going to be looking down on her new baby brother and taking very good care of him and your family. Congrats to you and your family :)
RainbowRach - Friday, 8 May
well done my darling, I can see why you are proud!! That must have been a very difficult thing to do, I hope this helps you to continue to heal and look forward to Ty's arrival x x
tracylouella - Thursday, 7 May
OMG it gave me goosebumps reading this. Good for you, i certainly wouldnt have the strenght to do it. My daddy passed away 6 years ago while vacationing visiting me, and to date i will not throw his stuff out... including his hair. So for you to do such an awesome thing, makes me feel like maybe its time I did it too!
Have a good one and thanks so much for sharing!!!
tto - Thursday, 7 May
I am so proud of you. I can't imagine what that was like for you to do. I totally get saving every shred of her- I would too. I really believe you did it when God allowed you to be ready. It wasn't time until now. Check out ourlittlehogi's blog about names in the sand. It's a lady in Australia who writes names in the sand of little ones gone to heaven for free. She did it and so did I. It's really nice. I have to say, that I try and treasure each moment with my kids and not take it for granted. I know more time with Ari would be priceless. Thank God that heaven is real and you will be with her again!
beckybear - Thursday, 7 May
What an accomplishment, you should be proud! I'm glad you were able to take this important step for you, for Ari, and for Ty. Sorry to hear that your DH is sick.
ChristineR - Thursday, 7 May
Oh Julz.. I am SO proud of you!!!! I can't even begin to imagin how hard that must have been. You are truly the strongest person I know! You amaze me everyday!!! I can't wait to hear about Ty!!!!!! Ari is his guardian angel!!!! sending much LOVE your way!!!!! GO YOU!!!!!!!
blackrussian - Thursday, 7 May
I bet she watched you from heaven and knows how much you love her What a precious little angel.
chloecupcake87 - Thursday, 7 May
aww well done
that wud ov taken alot ov strength and courage to do
so sorry 4 ur loss cant imagine the pain u must ov went thru
take care
xxx
LvBNaMommy - Thursday, 7 May
You are a strong beautiful person!!!! I am so proud of you, I can't imagine what you have been through hun!!!
Stay strong!
mamalvs4 - Thursday, 7 May
I CANT IMAGINE HOW DIFFICULT THAT WAS FOR YOU! but im proud of you too! stay strong mama
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