16-7-2008 - Week 25 Visit

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Yesterday I had my week 25 visit. Today I make 26 weeks. We heard her heartbeat with the Doppler. The midwife said it's in the 150s which is perfect. I asked her if she could tell the position of the baby and she was actually able to. She said that her head was already positioned down and her arms and feet were to the side. I knew her head was down because I could feel her right above my pubic bone and I actually saw her feet poking out the side of my tummy. The midwife said that she still has alot of room, so she might move again before it's time. I highly doubt that she will turn again because with my son, he was head down by 7 months and never moved again.

The depressing part of the visit was she reviewed my sugar levels from my glucose test and said everything came back normal, however, I am gaining too much weight too fast. Within the past month, I gained 9 pounds. I have already gained 30 pounds at 25 weeks and she said I have to gain atleast 4 more pounds for each remainder month. She said that if I continue at the rate I am going, I will gain 50 pounds by the end of the pregnancy, which is way too much. The good part is that I don't have gestational diabetes, but that means it's how and what I'm eating. So now I have to watch what I eat and how much I'm eating.

I left the appointment feeling like a 'FAT PIG'! I couldn't understand how the heck I gained 9 pounds in the last 4 weeks! I knew I was gaining weight, but to have the midwife say I'm gaining too much, is very dissappointing. I was even upset with my hubbie cause I told him he should have been telling me I'm getting too fat. He tried to explain there's a difference between a 'fat pig' and pregnancy weight gain. Now I feel like I can only eat salad and water. I will feel too ashamed to even wear clothes that will show my fat body now. The kicker is I go on vacation next Thursday to the U.S. Virgin Islands, where there is only beach and great food, but I know I can't enjoy either feeling like this. I even talked with my mom and she told me since I'm not working the summer, I'm not as active as I usually am and I just have to eat in moderation and try to be a little more active.

I am now starting to feel ligament pains, more stretchy crampy feelings and the worst-- indigestion. My sleepless nights are getting more and more uncomfortable. Wow. How many more weeks?! I've gotta be strong and keep going. Just have to keep praying.