02-8-2009 - Emotional and crying

My mood while writing this blog: grumpy

Hi all,

so i have gone from being elated to be in my second trimester to being grumpy, fed up and crying! The sickness hasn't quite eased as much as i thought it had so am still suffering a little. I've coped with it for so long i don't know why a bit longer should hurt but it seems like ive taken all i can. I'm so fed up of being ill and tired and having a small appetite but not liking any food. If i'm out and i see people eating i get so jelous seeing them tuck in to food i would normally enjoy.

Apart from the sickness issue im also starting to show a bit which again was exciting at first but now im feeling emotional i just feel frumpy like no one can tell its pregnancy weight yet. Totally irrational i know but it keeps popping into my mind and i find myself pulling my cardigan closer to hide my belly.

Then there is the crying. I had a proper toddler tantrum today and cried my eyes out because i couldnt find anything that i wanted to eat. It just exploded out of me from no where. I'd had a trickle of tears over the past couple of days over nothing really but this was like nothing ive ever known! Luckily matt was a gem and just cuddled me and comforted me until id finished! Ha, i feel such an idiot now but i couldnt have stopped it as didnt know it was coming! I do feel better now though and not on the brink of tears all the time.

I really hope things improve soon. Not just for my sanity but there is only so long that people are sympathetic to constant complaining which is all i feel i do!

Sorry i seem to have gone on a bit ladies! Does anyone find this has happened or is happening to them. Feel grateful but hopeless at the same time and like enough is enough?

Thanks for listening, hope your all doing great, take care, kate x