13-1-2010 - Still waiting.....

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Hi everyone.

Feeling a little restless and frustrated today. It has been snowing here since the early hours of the morning and we've got about 3-5 inches of snow out there. As beautiful as it is I can't really get out and do much. I don't feel safe walking in the snow incase i take a fall so i have to make sure someone is with me which is a bit annoying. Also limited even by walking as live too far away from most people to walk and driving is tricky in this weather even geting out of my road is a nightmare and have got no chance on a day like today.

So, I feel like i'm rattling around in the house all day with nothing to do as everything is organised and sparkling already. Just makes this waiting game seem even more tedious. I just wish i knew how long i had to wait! I'd love it in a way if she came now as she could see the snow before it all melts and it would be memorable that she arrived during heavy snow fall. I'm not worried about getting to the hospital, i don't live far away and its all main roads to get there. I also wouldn't mind being in the house all day if i had her to look after.

I know we all get fed up at the end, and i should be appreciating my last few weeks as just me and matt with no children, but in a way it's so close we feel like she's already here and we are just desperate to meet her now. I think it's also since we've decided to call her Aimee. It's like she's a real person now. Well, i know she is, but that we've realised it now is what i mean.

I can't wait to see Matt as a dad, and i'm also intrigued to see how i'll feel as a mum. Whether i'll instantly take to it or whether i'll find it a struggle, i don't really know what to expect. Oh it's all so exciting, and i can't wait to meet my beautiful little girl.

Have got to see the midwife on Monday and it will be every week after this appointment, but nothing exciting really, just usual checks, BP, Urine and babys heartbeat and position. Nothing exciting to report symptom wise, just a few braxton hicks and general cramping, still a little bit of discharge. Nothing exciting though.

Anyway sorry its been such a long blog about not alot! It's been easy to ramble on when i've got nothing to do. Well, i'll keep you updated, cross your fingers for me x x x