well where do i start? Koa and i have been together for 8 years now. we have been married for 2 years and were so happy together. i met koa when i was 15 and he was 20. well i got pregnant and had my first baby at 16. IT WAS HARD BUT I DID IT! me and my hubby have been TTC for the past two years. well in april of 2007 we found out we were pregnant! well i had a M/C at 7 weeks in the first week of may. i didnt want to get discouraged so i just pretended that it didnt hurt and we went on trying again. we held our heads high and again we were pregnant in june! well after traveling across country from oregon to indiana our baby died at 9 weeks. i was so hurt! i guess all the emotion just came pooring out. i started to blame myself and wanting to ask GOD why? but i knew that you cant ask GOD why you can only say thank you! i was like how do you say thank you to something that has happened that hurt so badly? well the next day a lady in church said her friend had a baby and it was only born with a half of brain. that was just alful i thought. maybe GOD had saved me from going threw something like that! well i lost some hope then but i knew JESUS wouldnt give us anything we couldnt bear! even tho i hated every pregnant woman i saw and it was like every time i turnedaround there was a little baby! it was hard. well a few months later i kinda felt better an d was starting to enjoy life more and about six months later january 22, 2008 we got a