10-4-2011 - BFN =(

My mood while writing this blog: bummed

I went off my BC at the end of my last cycle. We were going to be careful because if we tried this month, the birth date would be December 21st and we didn't want to have a Christmas baby. But we weren't very "careful"

I was worried about it at first (because of the birthdate) But because I had just gotten off the pill I thought there was a very small chance at getting pregnant.

Right around the time I should have O'd I had very intense cramps in my lower abdomen. So then I started thinking that I might be pregnant. I know it's too early to have symptoms.. but I swear I do!! I'm tired, my breasts are sore and tingly and I just FEEL like I am. But I took a HPT this morning and it was a BFN. =(((

I didn't think I would be this disapointed! It doesn't help that 3 of my friends are pregnant at the moment and every other day there is a new post on FB about how they're feeling or how they're excited.. ahh the green eyed monster is in me.

We're going to be very actively trying next cycle.. which should start in 3-4 days. I hope it's as easy this time around as it was last time. I've been looking at the TTC forum on here everyday and my heart hurts for the women who have been trying for so long. I can't imagine the pain.. and I hope that I don't have to experience that pain and disapointment.

I have a friend who tried for 6 years before having a healthy little boy (who is now my sons BFF) She had 3 miscarriages and a still birth and is hoping to start trying again in the summer.

Anyways.. best of luck to all of you.. and wish me luck next month!!

**Baby dust**