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|08-9-2011 - TTC cycle #4
||My mood while writing this blog:|
We had my friends funeral yesterday.. As a mother I had such a hard time. My heart hurt for his mom. He was only 30 (just turned a couple months ago) and he had a long battle with addiction and depression before he took his life 2 weeks ago. His mother had done everything in her power to save him, but his demons took over and consumed him. I got home from the funeral and I held my baby for as long as I could before he pushed me away because he wanted to play.
It hurt so much to say goodbye to a good friend, but it hurt more to think of his mother. - Mommys: Hold your babies tight, always be there for them, love and support them.
RIP Higgy 1981-2011 <3
On the note of motherhood- AF reared her ugly head on Sunday. I am now cycle day 5. I am going to be trying BBT and OPKs this month and am excited for this month, I was so upset on Sunday when I started my period, but I need to be optimistic.. this is only TTC cycle 4, so many women do this for years and years and never give up.
As it's been proved to me so many times in the last couple years - Life is fragile, life is short. I can't spend it upset over something that is out of my hands. All I can do is try, hope, and pray, and in the meantime enjoy the beautiful little blessing I have. Enjoy my family, friends, and be happy with my beautiful life.
<3 ** Baby dust to you all who are trying**
1 Comments on TTC cycle #4luckylady69
- Tuesday, 20 Sep I have no doubt that it will happen for you. Maybe, while you're in Disneyland. Isn't that where magic happens (I think that the saying. lol). Anyway, don't stress. I am in the same boat as you. My system is so messed up after 2 m/c. Just give it time.....Enjoy your vacation!